everyone seeems to be away. uncle's in taiwan now. that's why aunt stays with grandparents and me today. helped to take care of my two year old nephew. it kind of bonds us closer together. grandpa took aunt and my two year old nephew to united square for some kids' roadshow. barney i think. my cousin's so happy when he came home. i mean that's how kids react. i didn't want to follow. i had to stay for someone. but in vain. quite a few of my friends are away too. one has gone to japan. one cruise. another malaysia. i had to sacrifice my cosy room for aunt and my two month old nephew. the whole living room's for me today. blahs. i'm fine with it. i didn't want to sleep in the maid's room. there are no beds in the other two rooms. maybe i should go to the garden. relax and enjoy the night breeze. sigh. so much have happened lately. it's time that i let go of everything. but how? let nature take her course. if things were never meant to be yours they would never be. no matter how hard you try. how much guts you slog out. people say things they never meant at all. without thinking how the other party would feel. had a hearty chat with grandma and aunt over dinner. grandma was telling me 'bout this plant that could ward off mosquitos. how cool. it looks so normal. nothing special. but i suppose it emits a scent that can ward off mosquitos. chatted with second aunt on the phone. she always asks me to eat. and eat. but i couldn't. i could feel that i'm getting fat and all. need to control my diet. i love second aunt. she treats me the best. i'm being biased. i know. i hate cousin. lately he has been giving aunt so much trouble. heard from mummy. making her sad and all. one day i shall give him a good beating. yeaps. want him to learn his lesson. not looking forward to christmas. why are we still friends? sigh.

rejected at ...
11:15 PM

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christopher
11 april '88
ex-sji
cjc
republic polytechnic
cyborg_bug@hotmail.com

likes

music
eating
cycling
swimming
badminton
to be loved

dis-likes

studying

my wishes

a new hp
mp3 player
taller [1.75]
a brand new life
soul - mate

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i will never forget
the days we once had.
the days when you were
everything to me.

my mind used to tell me that
we'd be together forever.
but now i realize that was
all a big dream.
which makes my heart shatters into a million pieces.

i sometimes wonder if you,
still think of me
and love me or if to do
i'm just a face in a crowd.
i wish so very much that one day
we can have it all back.
but for now, i sit here silently
remembering all the memories we once shared.
hoping that one day you
will feel the same and
put back the pieces of my
broken heart.

your existence is what makes
mine.
now. if love is painful and
tortures us so..
why do we love? why is it
all we search for in life?
this pain, this agony?
why is it all we long for?
this torture,this powerful
death of self?
maybe because its love

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