Friday, January 21
today was long and tiring. went out as early as eight and came back only in the eveing. family outing. hahas. went swimming in the morning. dad. brother. and me. brother must learn swimming! he can't swim well. hopefully after a few more times with dad he would be much better. i picked up swimming from dad too. when i was in primary school. couldn't swim well. now. quite ok. hahas. find it easier to pick up from dad rather than going to swimming courses. swimming is relaxing larh. first time in 2005 i swam. hahas. swam leisurely at first for close to an hour. then wanted to try something. put float in between my thighs and swam with my arms only. it kind of helped me to train abit too. i can't go more than six laps with my arms. guess i need more training. but it's fun larh. and i know i'm weak. that's why i need to undergo such training and all. after that went lunching with family. dad decided we go to queensway to get stuffs. didn't expect to see so many people. the crowd was like. omg. it's damn packed larh. brother got himself a new bag. new pants too. i got a new pants only. i don't need a bag now anyway. after getting our stuffs was dinner time at holland village. then. back home. sleep. zzz.
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Saturday, January 15
i have been reading other people's blogs lately. especially those of my former classmates who are doing their jc education now. kind of filled with remorse. regrets too. i would be missing out close to three months of studying. and three months. so much. put it this way. i'l never be able to catch up. but i want to do jc. i so much wanted to try jc out. i'm lazy. and i'l probably lose out to other people who have went through first three months. even if i do catch up it would not be as easy and smooth as i wish it could be. it's sure to be a tough and arduous journey for me. ok. i'm just dumb. or maybe to a greater extent. lazy. in singapore if you don't have a strong education foundation. it's as good as not existing in society. now i feel bad. and i always do. the days of january were just practically going for interviews. one was successful. but i turned the offer down. working hours and conditions are so bad that i didn't even think i'l survive working. blah. i was fussy. another job coming up next week. this time i'l try to be less fussy or not i'l never be able to take up a job. it's mid-january now. i can't be having a non-productive holiday. it'l definitely be wasting my life away. if. and if i make it to jc. school would start in april for me. olevels are over. no use brooding over it. hope for the best. expect for the worst too. i need to do some reading on my own. will i? sigh. i'l probably end up doing other stuffs. i'm always like that. it's such a bad habit. i can't get my priorities right. that's the trouble with me. ok. one of my resolutions this year would be getting my priorities in place. helped grandpa with some stuffs. so tired now. blah. all the workout i've been doing lately makes my body so pain. especially my legs. from skipping. i'm weak. dumb. being weak and dumb is serious enough. hope to be a better person. be there for friends when they are in need. got to pray that i won't be stucked in a dilemma. yawns. shall end here. blog tomorrow.
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9:16 PM
Thursday, January 13
hooray. cousin's wedding today. was at her mum's place the whole morning. dad was talking and talking. most of the time. hahas. so lively the atmosphere. all thanks to dad. my other cousin and aunts said dad was too noisy. i kinda can see he gets along with most of his siblings. shall cherish brother more. hahas. shall disturb him less. i wish i could help him in his work. but i'm dumb. so i might be teaching him wrong stuffs. it's always nice to have a lively atmosphere. first time i witnessed a tea ceremony. actually. second time. aunt's wedding a few years ago. came back home to bathe and get ready for her dinner tonight. i almost couldn't recognise cousin when she walked into the house with her bridegroom. looks so different. hmm. i remembered seeing the bridegroom smoking in his outfit. yucks. so unsightly. but i suppose he's a nice guy. hahas. i mean that's his life if he chooses to smoke. got to know one of dad's younger brothers better. talked to him quite abit. but there's something i don't like about him. because he owes dad 3k arh. he better pay up soon. or else. hahas. he's getting married soon too. hmm. maybe sometime next year. looking forward to cousin's wedding tonight. i've been so tired lately from all the intensive workout. planning to lose some weight. feel so fat man. ate too much during the lunch buffet. and now there's dinner. blahs. skipping can kill. hahas. shall end here.
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5:22 PM
Monday, January 10
one word. please.
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5:13 PM
Tuesday, January 4
went for two job interviews yesterday. one was earlier in the afternoon by myself. parents picked me up later in the afternoon. went for another job interview. at shenton way. the offices there are so classy. long time since i've been there. two interviews in a row. hopefully one is successful. or not i'l be working with friends. think it's much more interesting and fun this way. work with friends won't get bored so easily. they went for a job interview too yesterday. if worst come to worst. i'l work with them. though the pay might be lower. companionship's definitely more important to me. can talk doing work. at least i won't get bored to bits. i shall end here. shall sleep earlier. when job starts need to wait up early to prepare and stuff.
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11:11 PM
Sunday, January 2
didn't have time to blog. was clearing. and clearing during new year. dad's order. at least our home looked spick and span after the clearing and all. new beginning. hope my dreams and wishes would come true. -prays- hope i'l do better for olevels than prelims. sigh. new year was spent with grandparents. hmm. usually saturday would be grandparents' day for me. yeap. hang out with them for almost the whole day. shopped mostly. job hunting is tough. in a way it is. should have put in that little more effort. tomorrow's officially a school day. everyone would be busy. i'l soon be occupied with a job too. hope so. time is money. today's the first sunday mass of the year. and i'm late. it's a five minute drive from grandparents' to church though. parents. aunt. and cousins were already there. hmm. hahas. should have turned in earlier the previous night. but i was reading the bible. a condensed version. so i guess it's alright. i want to learn more 'bout my faith. i'm into a bible. blahs. ages since i touched one. shall read a few extracts every night before turning in. hope i keep to my word. and how could they not telecast nation's countdown on television? haix. what rotten luck this year. 2004 ended on a sad note. grandpa was suggesting our whole family to go for a holiday in thailand in the middle of this year. phew. luckily mum strongly advised him against the idea. it would have been a much greater nightmare for us. hope the affected countries would regain their confidence and look on the brighter side of things in 2005. may the new year realise unfufilled promises and wishes. most importantly. health. hmm. i was helping grandparents collect some fertiliser for their graden from the empty grass patch on the elevated land yesterday with the help of my bike. it's from this huge heap of fertiliser. not sure what is made up of. the one which can be seen along road sides used for plant pruning. hahas. it has been abandoned there for quite some time. nobody uses it. so i being a 'kind' soul made a few trips to collect the 'free' fertiliser. and when i got it on my bike. it's so hard to balance. furthermore the return trip's down a steep slope. one arm holding the filled plastic bags. the other steering the bike. but it was worth the effort. had fun too. passer-bys gave me a weird look. especially the joggers. hahas. but who cares? it's free stuff. better get into the habit of sleeping early. hope everything goes well for. -winks-
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