Saturday, January 15
i have been reading other people's blogs lately. especially those of my former classmates who are doing their jc education now. kind of filled with remorse. regrets too. i would be missing out close to three months of studying. and three months. so much. put it this way. i'l never be able to catch up. but i want to do jc. i so much wanted to try jc out. i'm lazy. and i'l probably lose out to other people who have went through first three months. even if i do catch up it would not be as easy and smooth as i wish it could be. it's sure to be a tough and arduous journey for me. ok. i'm just dumb. or maybe to a greater extent. lazy. in singapore if you don't have a strong education foundation. it's as good as not existing in society. now i feel bad. and i always do. the days of january were just practically going for interviews. one was successful. but i turned the offer down. working hours and conditions are so bad that i didn't even think i'l survive working. blah. i was fussy. another job coming up next week. this time i'l try to be less fussy or not i'l never be able to take up a job. it's mid-january now. i can't be having a non-productive holiday. it'l definitely be wasting my life away. if. and if i make it to jc. school would start in april for me. olevels are over. no use brooding over it. hope for the best. expect for the worst too. i need to do some reading on my own. will i? sigh. i'l probably end up doing other stuffs. i'm always like that. it's such a bad habit. i can't get my priorities right. that's the trouble with me. ok. one of my resolutions this year would be getting my priorities in place. helped grandpa with some stuffs. so tired now. blah. all the workout i've been doing lately makes my body so pain. especially my legs. from skipping. i'm weak. dumb. being weak and dumb is serious enough. hope to be a better person. be there for friends when they are in need. got to pray that i won't be stucked in a dilemma. yawns. shall end here. blog tomorrow.
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