Monday, March 28
oh my gosh. today was tiring again. tomorrow it will be even worst. sentosa. i need to sleep early tonight! my new home tutorial group rocks my socks. =p. the first impression they left me was kinda good. i don't know about what they think of me. but then again they'r great people to be with. ahh. i'm hungry again. have been skipping breakfast and lunch since school started. i shall go to bed soon to kill my hunger. lalalas. looking forward to sentosa. i will die larh. i'm like really weak this days. -yawns- off to bed. brother's birthday tomorrow. woohoo. we shall all go for a good meal together. happy 14th birthday benjy! he knows i have a blog but he doesn't visit my blog. well i guess he won't be seeing it. sometimes i can spend the whole afternoon just talking to him. but mummy wants him to focus on his school work. so we get to talk less now. : (. hope he gets into a good class since it's his streaming this year. may your wishes and dreams come true in the folowing year.
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10:51 PM
Sunday, March 27
i must say yesterday was pretty fun. brother's friend came over for some elderly rme project in the morning. they were supposed to interview my grandpa. but ended playing. just took some pics with grandpa. that's all. and poor me ended typing out their assignment till eleven when i got back at nine plus. bathed and all because i was really hot and sticky. yesterday was really memorable and special because i got to meet someone special. after hour an hour of searching finally saw her at beauty world. initially i didn't know where she was. night cycling's so so dangerous. then she was saying over the phone i saw you! oh well. i tried moving elsewhere so that she couldn't see me. and she really lost where i was. =p. i saw her in this pink blouse and jeans. then she was trying to fake. saying she was wearing black top and shorts. we met up and all. walked and chatted under the moonlight. i left my grandparents' house before eight on my bicycle and i only got to meet her like half past eight. naughty me told them i would be back in fifteen minutes. obviously i didn't. really enjoyed yesterday night. we got to know each other a little better. people say time crawls at night. bleahs. i don't think so man. it's so fast and one hour had passed. so i seriously had to go home. i had calls from grandpa. aunt too. sigh. i told them wherever i go i would come back safely in one piece. felt so sorry that i got them worried and all. i shall learn to take better care of myself and hopefully they won't worry so much in future. when i wanted to return to grandparents' house she did walk me home. that's so sweet of her since i needed to leave for home. and those are bird's nest ferns! NOT banana trees. don't be afraid next time kayys. 26032005. i simply love this day :). if you happen to read this all i wish to say is a big thank you for everything. on the other hand today was a painful day. i just came back from the doctor's. i was complaining to mummy my right foot has been giving me trouble all this while. i suppose it's because of the incident which took place in july 2004. silly me went to jump in a moment of folly. anyway that's the past so i shall not bring it up. didn't know she took it so seriously. right after church this morning she brought me to some chinese doctor. and the pain was excruciating i tell you! the needles were so big. sigh. i think i have a phobia for needles. maybe it's because of the part at the back of the knee she PEIRCED. the joining there. luckily i didn't collapse or something. if i really did i'm so useless. phew. after the agonising half an hour i'm finally free! no more needles. =p. bad experience : (. brother's birthday in two days' time. shall go have lunch now.
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12:03 PM
Wednesday, March 23
oh well. it was one tiring day. i didn't take breakfast and lunch today. so i shall have early dinner. since it was the first time ever i've stepped into cjc so i was new to the whole place. i don't know whether i should feel happy or sad for one of my facilitators. he's like. oh my gosh. sigh. i don't know what to say. this cannot. that also cannot. and can't he be more gentlemanly? instead of pulling me up from sitting couldn't he have asked me can you shift, please? i won't say he's rude. he's just one attitude guy that i got to know on the first day of school. and he was from sji too. i've seen him before. bleahs. since i'm new to the school i won't say much bcoz i mean it's only my first day as a student there. and i kinda pity him for getting suan-ed by this guy from st andrew's which i couldn't really remember his name. anyway he just speaks his mind. even though his comments are like. -ouch- hahas. maybe he was trying to get back at him for me. oh ya. everyone saw. i was like sitting then he pulled me up. i was reluctant so i was like jerked forward forcefully. i gave him the i don't know what you call look. then he was trying to engage a conversation with us and he was standing up for quite some time. so i asked him to sit down instead. it's called caring. not hypocrisy. hahas. that's crap. everyone was laughing. maybe not everyone. i heard some laughter though. he's so hard up on us to join canoeing. i was considering canoeing. but now i have second thoughts which did hold me back. hmm. i wish i could know more people. hopefully before the groups and all change on monday. i should be content with what i have. when i reached there in the morning i was warmly greeted by some of my classmates. i'm glad they still remembered me. and i remembered them too. there are nice and sweet people in my group too. it's just that it's the first day and everything's so screwed. especially the facillitator with an attitude. maybe not attitude it's see and hear alr not comfortable that kinda thing. oh well. he mentioned that i was a sucker or something like that when i couldn't introduce my partner in detail enough. ehh. as if you can introduce yourself really well. but i guess i did try quite abit. and all the others did try too. he was bad to say 'wa lau' and all to you guys right? hahas. never mind about that. hope we get to know each other better than he wouldn't have anything bad to say about us. there are always more things on the other side. hope tomorrow will be a better day. the st andrew's guy was funny in his own way. saying 'if we'r not bonded it's your fault [facilitator's] what bcoz it's your job to bond us.' he should be quite a nice guy to hang out with. just that maybe this is his second time attending the orientation. so things might be a little plain for him. on the whole i still enjoyed my stay in school today as the principal, HOD and the student development master were approachable. i had this doubt as to take physics or biology for my second science subject. then the student development master directed me to the HOD in science. he did enlighten me but i guess the majority of the choice comes from me. sigh. i don't wish to choose a subject that i would regret taking later on. sentosa trip next week. -faints- i need to get more rest and adapted to the times and all. shouldn't be turning in so late like i did the past few months. i knew turning in late was bad. but what to do? hahas. ok. i need to exercise more. everywhere i go i see strong people. seeing is believing. so what am i doing now? go train!
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4:53 PM
Monday, March 21
had so much fun last week. changi beach was kinda cool. went there with cousins. spent the whole morning there. then when for lunching after that. but all these fun will end once school starts. sheesh. postings will be out tomorrow morning. ahh. that means i will have to report for school early. i hope i'l have fun at school man. or not jc will be another boring stage of life. actually i'm pretty fine with poly. since i did a teeny weeny well enough to qualify for jc. so i shall stick with jc. but i totally hate that stupid gp. omg. and there's chinese too. actually not much different from secondary school. just that life will be more hectic with more work load coupled with stress. but i'm still looking forward to jc. hahas. i wish i could join canoeing. i hope i won't die in that cca. i heard their trainings are hell. if i do get into canoeing i hope i survive. -prays- i've always wanted canoeing as my cca in secondary school. but ended up joining a UGO. oh ya. it did help me get my two bonus points. so it ain't that bad being in a UGO. sj will be off to australia in 5 days time. farewell to him. : ). anyway there's high chance he won't see this. ok. shall end here. i need to improve my strength and my running. then canoeing will accept me. -grins-
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1:31 PM
Friday, March 4
i finally can put my mind at ease. but this morning i crawled myself out of bed just to make my way down to the damn place where i can get my singpass reset. thankfully the person who attended was alright or not i would have given him a tongue-lashing. waking up early knowing that there would be a crowd was already a pain. MOE just wants to show others how capable the education system in singapore by the net-savvy way of applying for jc/poly/etc. i don't find anything wrong with that. but can't they even ensure that the system is in good working condition before putting it into use? come to think of it they are just a bunch of inconsiderate, heartless people. and why must we always be the guinea-pigs for all their new shyts which doesn't seem to work at all? they always think highly of themselves. and worst of all fabricating lame excuses saying people not getting their singpasses early enough and so on. i think they'r just covering up for stupidity. can't they just issue forms like they did last year? phew. anyway i've got this out of my way. and i can enjoy my weekends better. word of advice. if it's not going to work. don't show your stupidity. and no point covering up anymore. the truth is out.
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8:39 PM
Tuesday, March 1
yesterday marks another milestone of my educational life. probably a bad one. nothing good to relish about. i must say it's really nice to be together as a whole class again. hmm. the night before our results my fellow classmate asked me out for breakfast. hahas. and i was like. wa. need to wake up early! but since it's results day so i find going out a better way to start my day. rather than just sleep sleep sleep. i would have to wake up early when school starts too. life's so short to discover everything. so no point sleeping all your time away. some people are getting really strong now. creatine arh. =p. you know who you are. hahas. bleahs. i still think natural is the best! niways when we reached school it was about time. talked to a few of my classmates to catch up on stuffs. i like panasonic x700. so chio that handphone. borrowed from sj and played with it for awhile. yee. but i don't like the brand. hahas. but who cares. the design's just so eye-catching. at least enough to catch my attention. =p. so after talking in the library [we were so loud]. hahas. we went to hall. first time in such a long time sji guys were so silent. couldn't believe my ears. niways everyone was praying really hard. and me. i was hope i don't fail anything. still remembered failing combined humanities during prelims. but can't afford to. it's olevels. i'l probably end up in a sorry state if i failed anything. my target was 12. but i knew i couldn't make it. forget about taking 4 'A' level subjects. i don't think i can even cope with three let alone four. i was the last to receive in my class. i don't know i should feel happy or sad. mixed emotions i guess. sj's going off on 26 march. i can't even see him off. his parents was saying. no friends. then he went on saying his parents told him if friends were to tag along. wouln't he be spending more time with his friends than them? knew him for four years. fours years and my view of him changed alot. though some things still remain unchanged. i guess he won't be reading this. i have to say he's one true pal. just that sometimes he gossips untrue stuffs about me. so bad. no wonder get whacked by me. hahas. he deserved it. anyway he doesn't seem to hold it against me. i still will regard him as someone great to have around. after scoring an a2 for english i was happy for a moment. but it was false hope. i didn't hit my target. it was bad enough. i wanted 12 but i got 15. though i improved like 10 points. but my results were still shyt. the only reason i could find was i'm dumb. never mind. life's like this. i scored a2 for mr chin's subject. though i secretly had my recess at the back of class during his physics lesson. this one big packet of rice. spent the whole period eating. hahas. i wasn't that bad. i shared with my classmate. =p. those were the times. good old times in sji. will always cherish and treasure every moment though i don't express it in class. but i do. for once i passed amaths. not that happy. just ok with it. passed combined humanities too. that was my 'don't give a damn' subject'. i still remembered studying for switzerland. maybe that helped me passed. i guess so too. thankfully it came out. for chemistry i studied. and how could i possibly get the same grade as biology which i didn't even study as much? it's so unfair. screw cambridge. maybe i'm just dumb. and that gives me the strength to carry on to work harder. shall end here. and continue tomorrow. -yawns-
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11:58 PM