Saturday, April 9
i've come to a realisation on something when i had a conversation with a former classmate of mine sometime back when during my orientation week. i don't know if i should call myself dumb or just determined and willing to persevere to the end to get what i wanted. it kinda struck me again when i realised it was just more than that. arhh. why must life have to go against you at times? it really makes me wonder. should i stay the way i am? sheesh. the obvious would be to get on with life. but certain things will always remain. they were 'meant to be.' the sad part is in reality it will never happen. the odds are much more. in love we search for what is steadfast and perfectly beautiful. but in life. life's like this. people change with time and that's what makes more meaning in life or takes away happiness. i used to believe in getting what i want. the many trials and tribulations in life will always go against me and prove me wrong. things happen for a reason. 'God has a plan for us.' many a time we would not know what He has in store for us but if we trust and believe in Him hopefully we would lead a beautiful and fulfilling life. His promising hope will not lead us astray. people might choose to see a happy me. but that's just the surface. what it really is would be so so different. when i look back into time it's a mixture of emotions. nothing seems too happy or too sad. it's just a big 'sigh.' there will be someone out there who will share the same boat but everyone is different and unique. there will never be everlasting happiness in the world. but there must be peace! loves peace. yesterday i wasted away my afternoon. supposed to work on my piling homework. my mind was elsewhere so i couldn't complete my assignments. it's another barrier other than the exasperation i get when i don't get to solve the questions in my assignments. still have lots of work to catch up on. and that's going to be hell for me. jc's a painful and struggling journey. especially the work load. and the insumounting stress. it makes me realise my limitations too and the route to alevels will be an arduous one. sometimes i just feel like chucking the work aside and giving my mind a little time away but more work will come. so it's as good as working 24/7. i guess my time management is really sucky. need improvement on that. someone teach me how! well time management should be on an individual basis. shall come up with a personal time-table real soon. or i'l drop dead with all the never-ending work. well i have something to say about our class. really fun class i must say. with all the great people our class will never be bored. it's a girl dominated class with about twice as many girls as guys. girl power class! yee. but the girls bully the guys. =p. on the whole 1T38 is still as wonderful as ever. that's the fun thing of jc. well having a great class means jc's increadible. [hope i can to meet c.q tonight. oh ya. don't worry. i will never take you for granted alright. you make one of the best gifts life can offer. time to cheer up okie. it will be my birthday day next monday. you must try to stay happy no matter what. please take care loads.]
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