what's the point of turning seventeen when everything seems so meaningless after that? one thing i should be thankful for. actually two things. my family and my class. at least they make my existence in this world more purposeful. whenever i look back into time i can't help but feel that i'm a total failure in life. i'm really not sure if you still treat me as a friend. deep in my heart i wish you still do. nothing is guranteed in life. especailly happiness. you can be happy for now and who knows the next moment you start getting overcome with sadness and begin feeling so depressed? why are we still friends? maybe we'r not. i wish you could be happy but why must you think that way? i agree with cornelius's blog entry. everyone in class is talking about relationships. a likes b. c likes d that kinda thing. but the truth is in reality it hurts. to me life is a learning process. we learn from our mistakes when we crumble. it's a difficult process that i will never be able to make it. it's close to impossible. i can say i'l try my best to. but certain things just prevents me. is everything i say untrue? well i learn from other people at times. is it so hard to seek for forgiveness? if it is then i'l rather throw in the cards and give up. you play the cards yourself. i get sick and tired when things turn hurtful. -she will be loved- time can heal everything. sounds cliche. if it really can work. it would be such a miracle. -prays hard- all i wish now is for me to be able to get on with work soon and don't let anything bother me so much. sigh.

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christopher
11 april '88
ex-sji
cjc
republic polytechnic
cyborg_bug@hotmail.com

likes

music
eating
cycling
swimming
badminton
to be loved

dis-likes

studying

my wishes

a new hp
mp3 player
taller [1.75]
a brand new life
soul - mate

the past
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[ x ] claudio
[ x ] cornelius
[ x ] daryl
[ x ] elena
[ x ] eugene
[ x ] eric
[ x ] gabrielle
[ x ] hazel
[ x ] isaac
[ x ] jacqueline
[ x ] jasmine
[ x ] jenna
[ x ] jeremy
[ x ] jeslyn
[ x ] jiawei
[ x ] jolene
[ x ] joyee
[ x ] klara
[ x ] michy
[ x ] peiting
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[ x ] sabrina
[ x ] serwee
[ x ] tina
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i will never forget
the days we once had.
the days when you were
everything to me.

my mind used to tell me that
we'd be together forever.
but now i realize that was
all a big dream.
which makes my heart shatters into a million pieces.

i sometimes wonder if you,
still think of me
and love me or if to do
i'm just a face in a crowd.
i wish so very much that one day
we can have it all back.
but for now, i sit here silently
remembering all the memories we once shared.
hoping that one day you
will feel the same and
put back the pieces of my
broken heart.

your existence is what makes
mine.
now. if love is painful and
tortures us so..
why do we love? why is it
all we search for in life?
this pain, this agony?
why is it all we long for?
this torture,this powerful
death of self?
maybe because its love

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