Tuesday, May 31
today as usual went to sch. didn't have breakfast at home. instead daddy bought nasi lemak for me to eat in school since i always reach school early. there was hardly anyone in school. ate alone at the canteen extension. after like 15 mins saw ian coming to the canteen. he walked over to where i was sitting and we started chatting. wow. ian told me that there's actually this girl in odac who can do 11 pull-ups. oh my gosh. that's madness! surely can win me in arm-wrestling larh. hahah. ppl in odac are doing so well in fitness. argh. now i know my fitness standard is like shyt. good luck for all those in odac who are going for a competition on 12 june! oh ya. supposed to write ian a testimonial. he's my good buddy in obs. well i left him to do his work since i had to leave for bio lect. today seems like less ppl turned up. don't know why oso. i'm too stupid larh. so it's better for me to attend whatever lects i can. after bio lect i walked to sji to collect my olvl cert. while i was waiting at the bus-stop there was this guy rollerblading. heh. i don't believe that i couldn't recognise him until he called me. he's my former classmate back at sji. he roller-bladed all the way from cck to cjc. i want to learn roller-blading too! i've tried after my olvls last year but i gave up half way. sigh. boarded the bus to suntec and met mummy. mummy was late! oh. brother was there to join us too. on my way to suntec i met yong xian. congrats =). he's in hwa chong now. and still in canoeing as usual. hanged around suntec and marina till late afternoon. went to carrefore to buy junk food. so unhealthy larh. before we went home we dropped by esplanade to have a look. first time i went there. so was kinda excited. hahah. really first time went there leh. everything appeared so nice. i could tell the library was damn high class thou i didn't really go in . the 'jigsaw-puzzle' art display was so unique. and the best was the roof terrace. i bet the ambience would be super romantic esp at night. i'm tired from all the walking today. shall have dinner soon. school again for me tml! 'they stay the way they are, i stay the way i am.'
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5:52 PM
Monday, May 30
-looks back- i still can't accept and don't believe they treated me this way. the way that i hated alot. i still couldn't figure out why. all i know was i didn't offend them. it doesn't always pay to be the good guy. life makes you learn to be strong no matter what happens. but is it possible? the greatest sin is looking down on other ppl. and the greatest mistake is not realising it. at least when i first stepped here i did have happy times talking, chatting, and cracking jokes. and surprisingly i danced. bcoz i felt being part of something. yeap. the laughter and all certainly added a great deal of fun. i really pity someone. i can see he's like trying so hard to get to know other ppl better. at least when i look back i would still have the fun times to relish. 'many parts form one body.' i hope i'm not a part of the many parts. don't wish to get myself involved. when they went out today. i didn't even want to follow them. more like tagging-along behind like a total loser. it's something quite similar to when the feeling in a relationship is lost there is no point carrying it on meaninglessly. once it's gone it's pretty difficult to revive it back. they can go enjoy by all means. i wouldn't make a difference. yeap. i guess it's kinda like that. both lectures today were quite ok. i was sitting alone by myself. for once i don't have to face any pressure from them. it's like a whole new world that i'm living in. and apparently there're external pressures too. my mind wasn't really there during maths lecture. but still i tried to make sense out from what the tcr is teaching. the song 'Akon - Lonely' is quite true actually. when you feel lonely. you're like a total nobody. heh. brother's so secretive about his ipod. i have no idea who gave it to him. he probably wouldn't buy it himself. anyway i've fixed my mp3 player myself. yay. finally it works. ytd i felt bored so decided to have a go at fixing it. didn't expect it to work either. and i treasure it alot since it was a gift from granpa. =). i don't look forward to school like i did before. i hate school! thank god i've a blog to pin down all my thoughts and feelings. how useful can my blog be. =D. right now i don't have any hopes. not even passing my exams. i'm dumb and i don't deserve to pass anything. i shall be going out with mummy tml. it's something that i look forward to. i'm better off alone. just now was super funny. brother wanted to play pool at home. then right we used our dining table which was slighly smaller than a pool table. used tennis balls. then for the cue. guess what? hahah. we used umbrellas. heh. had fun playing. times like this i really got to enjoy. once i'm in school. everything's a different story altogether. sigh. don't know if i should train later. did workout in the afternoon alr. i don't want ppl to call me fat. it really does'nt sound nice at all. then straight after working out i fell asleep. piggy me. still feel abit tired now. -yawns-
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6:16 PM
Sunday, May 29
had an important entry to type ytd. that's why didn't really blog about my day. well ytd did project work with my group which consists of elena, tina and xiao yan. i'm the only guy. argh. hopefully they won't ill-treat me. so far haven't yet. =p. i left my grandparents' house slightly before 10 and walked to the bus-stop opposite kap. took 171 to town for project. my mp3 player spoilt for quite sometime. so boring larh the bus journey. no music. nothing! by the time i reached far east it was almost 10.30. went to kfc and elena was alr inside. guess what? oh my gosh. she's mugging for bio as expected. i'm like so behind time. sigh. we sitted there and chatted for quite awhile before tina came. wah. ppl actually started studying for olvls in july. omg. that's like so early lorh. for me one week before olvls then i flipped open my books to study. thankfully i didn't do too badly larh. though there's still room for improvement. gp went : ( on friday. how come it's so difficult to even pass in gp?! it would be a miracle if i clear gp. -prays- we started discussing for so long leh before we came up with the animal-lover service. really look forward to such a service. hahah. it's going to be interestingly fun! hope this time ms lee approves our proposal. or there goes our efforts again. tina and elena were busy eating. then since i wasn't eating i volunteered to do the write-out. they were saying i was super enthusiastic about the project. alvls leh. not enthu oso must act enthu mah. hahah. xiao yan came extremely late. then we just told her briefly what we were planning to do. anyway it's about 1 plus. and i had to leave. on my way out i met bryan. with his outside gang i think. then chanel called to say she's coming town. just in the nick of time i was about to board the bus. so i was like ok lorh. we decided to meet at taka. then she said meet at the fountain there. so i went to the fountain at the basement there. i told her i reached alr. but still couldn't find leh. aiyo. she was at the fountain outside taka! bad bad. made her walk here and there. sorry k. anyway it was nice meeting her larh. she's been a model for quite long. so cool. too bad we met for awhile only since she had to go off with her friends to catch a movie. she's like so thin. i think i'm twice her weight larh. =p. after she left then i walked all the way back to the bus-stop to catch 171 back to kap. the bus was squeezy like anything. the bus shook here and there plus i'm on an empty stomach. make me so giddy larh. when i reached kap it was alr 2.30. crossed the over-head bridge and walked all the way into my grandparents' house. lunch was awaiting me! i couldn't wait to eat larh. damn hungry. the weather made me take out my shirt before i walked into the stretch of road. aiyah. who cares. the weather can kill. and i'm wearing a black shirt! when i reached home my body was filled with sweat. then looked into the mirror. wah. shiny shiny effect. damn nice! but my tummy all the fats larh. yucks. rested for awhile before i went out with grandpa, aunt, mummy and brother later. shall end here. lessons and lectures for me tml when other ppl are enjoying life. -faints-
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5:10 PM
'Chris. I'm alone at the airport now. I came to kill myself.' omg. when i saw this msg i was alr like 2 1/2 hours late. first thing i got to thank God you didn't kill yourself at the airport. i hate myself for just falling to sleep while lying on the floor in the com room. you'l never know how panic-stricken and worried i got what i received that msg. well i replied you and called right away. when i hear your so saddedned and depressed voice it can alr make me break down you know. and how i wish i was beside you to share your burden. i'l definitely want to be by your side when you're going through the darkest moment of your life. i don't even know what exactly happened. all you kept telling me was 'Chris. I won't live till tomorrow.' last month in april was a really sad month for us. we were supposed to be happy celebrating my bday. but you ended up disappointed and pissed with me for whatever reason. i don't wish to type it out now. the presents from you were the sweetest. it brings out in me alot of hurt and suffering seeing you so sad and all. many a time i've let you down. i know i did. sigh. i've been living with this mistake all along. the fear of you leaving me one day just like that always lingers within me just that i didn't tell you directly. the fear of you ending everything including our beautiful friendship. you saying you won't live till tml after eating the pill stuffs and all. i prayed really hard they were untrue. it cannot be true. it cannot. bcoz i'l be the one who would take care of you when no one else does. we must always try to carry a postive approach to the struggles in life. they can be overcome. the time and effort you put in surely will pay off. remember? after what happened in april when we didn't keep in touch for a few weeks or so. we could still go out so naturally and smoothly 2 weeks ago. you told me you had fun yeah. same here. although all this while in the eight months i know you. we've never been in a relationship. but i feel that we're closer than the many ppl around us. the last time i saw you was 14/05/2005. that won't be the last time alright. just imagine the fun we had going out together. it makes you want to live right? it certainly does k! we still have a long way to go. we'l guide each other in every step of our way. i ain't perfect. but in my eyes you are. you've done alot for me. same here. but you did more. please don't ever die. God will be good to you. he'l make a miracle happen tml. you'l live! then we can meet up on monday. no one knows what is like to feel this feeling. but whatever feeling you're going through now. i'l more or less feel it. after being through so much with you i can say from the bottom of my heart that i'l never ever want to lose you. all the love we made can never be replaced. friends forever and always. without you the world wouldn't be a loving place to live in anymore. the love and care you've brought to the world is just so so great. i can't afford to let anything bad happen to you. even if you don't read this. i hope you know there's still someone out there who is willing to care for you. i accept you for who you are. you being someone really important in my every aspect of my life whether you realise it or not. love, chris.
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1:52 AM
Thursday, May 26
mummy and daddy are off to brother's school for streaming talk. i'm all alone at home. i seriously don't know what to study for gp lorh. and the worst part is i don't read the newspaper. argh. damn lazy larh me. it's so different. olvls i didn't even study a single thing for english and i scored A2. now i can't even pass larh. how frustrating. if i cannot pass eng no point coming to jc lorh. i hope brother goes to triple science like me. hees. if i can make it. he can too! i'm so busy with jc wrk. actually i'm considered very slack. other ppl are working like siao. my arm shrunk 2cm from last year. argh. oh my goodness. i didn't realise my triceps are damn small until jun told me! aiyah ask him arm-wrestle me everytime oso come up with crap excuses to escape. hahah. but i must admit his running is superb. ok. pro larh. i'm the type that got no future and talent in running. now slacking online for awhile. oh ya. brother was telling mummy and me ytd. his geog tcr was teaching the topic on land reclaimation. then there's this dyke word in the chapter. he told the tcr 'isn't the word pronounced as di*k?' hahah. mummy and me were like laughing our heads off. he told us what the tcr said and how she reacted but i can't really remember now. anyway i got 16 groove coverage songs now. yay. finally can have a CD collection of groove coverage songs. i started listening to groove coverage quite sometime back when i fell prey to this really nice song played during a yo-yo competition. 'God Is A Girl.' good luck to me tomorrow. i must pass gp. if not everything fail larh.
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6:30 PM
Tuesday, May 24
daddy's been really nice to me ever since i came to cjc. almost everyday picking me up from school. same for today. i waited for daddy since he said this morning he will be fetching me. now i feel really bad. bcoz i keep failing my tests. i failed my gp for the second time. didn't improve from my previous essay. thankfully it didn't get worst. phew. i hate school when it ends late. so little time left for myself. esp today. after maths lecture. there was maths tutorial. bio prac. chem tutorial. makes my mind super drained and exhausting. i'm totally sick of jc now. ytd was chatting with my friend who went to RP to do bio-medical course. and i couldn't believe it. she doesn't have any homework at all till now. they do communication skills, presentation skills and all in poly. and since i feel i'm a more practical person that's why i can see how much i would have to slog out even to pass a subject. to me studying in jc is like mental torture. before i could fully understand something. the tcr would alr be on another topic. what to do? i've always been slow in learning. that's my nature. how unfortunate. i envy people who excel in studies. but i know i can never be like them. i've always wanted to show ppl that i can make it. but i end up achieving nothing. i'm just a nobody in this world awaiting to die. i try to be happy but some things aren't always the way you want them to turn out. how i wish ppl could lower their pride and sharpen their humility. mich. thanks for the sweets you gave me today. though it'l make me grow fat but later on i'l still eat them. shall try to finish. i'm not good with words. but i did thank you jus now. actually i don't deserve anything oso. heh. it's three more days to my gp exam. if i fail. that's the end. i won't get promoted anymore i think. unless i do extremely well for final year. which is like so super impossible. i never spoke a single word to les today. kinda unbelievable. i'l be like that till god knows when. i'm broke but i still put Y for class jersey for the second time. the first time round i didn't. that i admit. i don't know what name and number to choose. my mind's in a super lost state now.
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7:01 PM
Monday, May 23
firstly i got to apologise. i don't really reply on my tag-board. sometimes i don't even check lorh. today i woke up early at like 7. argh. damn tired. no choice larh since mummy said she needed to wash my bedsheet. they all went to pick class jersey today i think. didn't want to go out with them. =p. since today dad ain't working so decided to be guai and stay home to keep my family company. =). my short-term memory's back. i can't remember what i did. argh. well i think i did try to read the mass media notes tcr gave but it's super boring larh. i thought brother what i learnt in fitness club. lalalas. i can be his personal trainer. bleahs. he's so strong alr larh. i can't even do 8 pull ups in when i was in sec 2 lorh. and he won me in napfa by 1 pt. i feel so paiseh. but i won him in 2.4 run. yay. first time ever k. my 2.4 run still sucks larh. talked and talked to him till parents got fed-up larh. hahah. he's supposed to do work since his streaming exams are coming. i'm on a food bringe. my fav aunt and mummy kept telling me to eat more. they always nag and nag. saying if i don't eat next time will become tick-ko. hahah. i jus finished a big bowl of tom yam noodles. then right when i was eating the soup damn spicy larh. so i was making a weird expression like going to choke on the chilli and throw up that kind of expression. brother and daddy kept laughing larh. choke on chilli throat super pain wan k! aft that went to the room to pack my bag. brother was doing his total defence project. my dog-tag was in my bag. it remembered me of the person who gave it to me on my bday. and i went gabrielle! i really have no idea how to pronounce her name larh. until she told me how to. initially when i tried pronouncing it went gae-bril-lee. hahah. super funny larh. brother and i kept going on and on. saying the name over and over again. i miss clifton! my life time brother. decide on a date arh. then we can go collect our olvls certificate.
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9:08 PM
Sunday, May 22
i'm listening to music from groove coverage now as i'm blogging. they're pretty meaningful. the lyrics tells alot. i really love the songs. they can deviate my mind away from all the troubles in life. be it the trivial ones or the burdened ones. puts me in wonderous look why certain things in life goes against your way. esp something subtle and unpredictable like love. living an unwholesome 17 years surely did make me realise certain things are worth letting go. these are the things which you don't give a damn or a second look. on the contrary the happy and vivid memories which can put a smile on your face =) on a gloomy day are the stuffs that are worth keeping in your heart now and always. and most importantly the songs makes me want to dance too! remembered the times when i danced in class. so paiseh and ma-loo. no wonder everyone was like laughing their heads off. yucks! i enjoy dancing just that i can't dance well and properly larh. after being in a class for close to two months. hmm. i realised that there are two super segregated groups in my class. they are like the allied and axis larh. for me. i'm like on my own. i. myself. my own clique. same person. no idea whether it's a sad or happy thing. probably a mixture of feelings i guess. one clique has like 8 ppl. the other has 8 too i think. not sure either. bleahs. nvm. i was asking hui hui on friday when we were having prize ceremony in the freaking stuffy multi purpose hall at the place where they train teachers. forgot what the place is called also. super blur man! anyway i asked how come never go out together as a class with the other clique. then she was saying they all also never ask us to join them. oh well. quite true actually. someone has to take the initiative larh or else like that lorh. i'm still thinking how sway i was last friday larh. i was coming down from the escalator in hmv with my friend then shun xie shouted my name in a weird accent. then her whole clique turned to look at me larh. kinda dao-ed them. =p. somemore go round spreading rumours. super bad larh. hate this kinda ppl. but they did apologise. so i was like ok lorh. anyway girls like to gossip larh. hahah. cannot be helped. back to clique stuffs. i really don't want to be caught in a situation whereby i'm kind of like a tag along. something like let's say A guy talking to B girl and C just hangs around the both of them but hardly participates in the convo. even if i ain't accepted in class. i'm happy being an ex- josephian. 'once a josephian, always a josephian.' and from what i see there're many potential couples in my class. don't wish to type it out larh. such things sensitive mah. maybe i won't even get through my promotion exams larh. why think so far? life is but a dream. just like the song row your boat suggests. i believe and sure God has a plan for me. only start of sec 4 then i started being more participative in church. started singing the hymns and all. it just comes naturally larh. before that i'm like totally switched off in church lorh. someone in church has a really really sweet voice. she's in choir. bleahs. i'l never get to know her larh. but my family always sits near the choir. hees. it's been a few weeks since i saw her in church today again. she did intersessions. -winks- heh. grandma knows her mummy i think. =p. argh. my mind is flooded with groove coverage. time to stop now! i miss my long brother in sji. wonder if he will see this. probably not right. too busy with girls in jc alr. =D.
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5:09 PM
i'm slacking online now. that's the worst thing i can do when exams are coming! my whole body's aching now. argh. hate it! just came back from badminton and soccer with brother. i'm training badminton with my left hand. woohoo. since both my arms are damn lousy i chose to train left hand lorh. anyway i had great food yesterday night. still thinking about the food now. hahah. the fried oyster in newton makes me drool. superb man! grandma went out with her friend yesterday and she didn't come back till 10 plus and brought food back. got me worried for quite abit larh. oh ya. and the pau grandma bought. simply marvellous. but so ex- lorh. one big chicken pau costs $1.40. that reminded me yesterday afternoon when i went out with my cousins. we ordered this plate of don't know what fish from the korean stall. then i told my cousin i won't be eating much so i'l share with him. when i asked the lady how much is one bowl of rice. wa seh. she told me one buck for that small bowl of rice. go and die larh. rip off! super pissed lorh. anyway i got cousin to get another bowl of rice from another stall. makes me wonder how ppl make money out of us. the fish definitely tastes yummi-licious. sadly there's no such thing as having the best of both worlds. the calories and cholesterol. argh. how sia. i don't want to grow fat. okok. now must try to control my diet. plus exams coming. the worst thing is i won't have any time to exercise! spent my whole saturday morning fixing and upgrading stuffs on the coms at my grandparents' house. i took super long lorh. damn stupid larh. and super blur oso. hahah. last night i made sure everything's in place before i took my bath at like ten. oh ya. ytd afternoon was raining. stucked at home. super sian larh. got nothing much to do. i piggy-backed my cousin to and fro the asile in my grandparents' house for ten times continously. told mich before my cousin's from her sec sch. then she was saying the lower sec there got alot of fat ppl. sob sob. she must be referring to my cousin. hahah. having fun at the same time it's challenging. he's like more than 5kg heavier than me lorh. imagine overcoming a weight heavier than your body. felt weak and numb in my limbs. hahah. after the rain subsided. grandpa, mummy, my fav aunt, my two cousins went out for dinner. that's when i had the super oily fish which made me feel so fat now larh. guilt-ridden. sigh. my whole body is in pain. -aches-
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2:31 PM
Friday, May 20
when i came back home. mummy asked me. 'chris did you play soccer today?' i was like. ya. apparently i didn't. sigh. today sucks larh. what a way to begin. but who cares. hmm. in the morning after letting brother off at sji daddy dropped me at the teacher's training centre there near botanical gardens. i thought i was early. but i saw quite a few people there. when i walked in met sean lee. my classmate in sec 1 and 2. asked him what was he doing here so early then he said was supposed to set up the sound system. so cool. he's in film and video club. i love photography. but sadly it's an expensive hobby. i'm way too poor to afford. so i can well forget it. i offered to help set up the sound system since i had nothing to do at that time. waited for my classmates to arrive. assembled on the field at 7 plus. then the soccer guys had to report at 9 plus i think. so my class ppl told me i was supposed to play since i did sign up. was kinda surprised. actually was totally caught by surprise bcoz the tcr told me i wasn't registered to play. hmm. then there was nothing i could do. so i just had to accept it lorh. but the match starts at 10:10. after they reported and we went back to our bags elena wanted to take pics of the class team. i was like. don't want larh. i also not playing for the class. after much persuasion i chin chai took pics with them. felt so extra larh bcoz i wasn't even going to play lorh. it reminds me of the very different times when i was in sji. everyone who signed up gets to play no matter what. really love the sji spirit. brings back good memories. even though the team wasn't on a winning streak everyone still gets a chance to be on the field. that is when a class can really bond well and overcome all odds together. every player sees the best in each other. winning isn't everything though ppl might disapprove of what i say. it's the satisfaction you get when actually work towards something you have in mind. of course there's always room for improvement. i'm a really imperfect person with lotsa flaws. i don't ask for much. i won't even mind if my entire class depise me. i feel like a class reject. always wanting to do my part but i ain't perfect enough. you guys did well in soccer today. keep up the good work. i tried not to bemoan or anything. since i knew i wasn't going to play. i'm far from good but how i wish i we could play as a class together. that's just all i ask for. well true enough i didn't manage to. went for a morning jog to botanical gardens ALL alone by myself. how sad. indeed it is. but i must admit it's a really nice feeling with the greenery surrounding you. the serenity just simply diverts my mind away from all the unhappy stuffs and troubled world i am in. unfortunately. on my way back met quite a few of my old friends. caught up with them on some stuffs. by the time i came back the match has started. but didn't really go to the pitch and support. had some other stuffs to attend to. i only when there when the match was half way through. heh. the sun really kills. it's like draining all my energy away. so frustrating. did'nt do much except for the jogging but i alr felt deadbeat. jun was telling me about how he disliked his class. but at least you still got to play netball with your class. you ought to feel happy yeah. i doubt you'l read this. hahah. bcoz you don't even know my blog. i've always wanted to play as a team with my class. bleahs. forget it. i'l never happen larh. so i shalln't think so much. the soccer boots which i got for my bday present. hmm. maybe it should be a class boots. i don't really play field soccer much. more of those on concrete ground. after all the games ended still had to proceed to the multi purpose hall for prize giving. the hall was super stuffy. there was practically no ventilation at all. sucks larh. i sat alone. obviously i was. then susan started talking to her clique about my friend with me at hmv last friday. hai. they all started asking funny and weird stuffs. i can't be bothered. waited impatiently for the prize giving to end then jun wanted to go town to have lunch and he was thinking of getting a new hp. so i suggested that we eat first then i'l bring him to view hps. since he was alright with it and i was fine too we walked all the way till the bus-stop one stop after sji. didn't want to go out with my class. for whatever reason i have on mind. anyway they were going for pool. i hate pool! and i don't really click with the stuffs my class ppl talk and do. initially was ok. but now. i don't know larh. maybe it's bcoz i didn't want to mix around much with them. except for leslie. but since les's following them. then like that lorh. hi five. jun hates pool like i do. jun and i was talking and talking along the way till our mouths almost ran dry. makes me change the impression of st pats' guys. just didn't have a good impression of them. if i remembered correctly my samsung flip-phone got stolen in sec 3 when st pats' ppl came down to my school for rugby. shyt them larh. i was so stupid leh. since it was raining quite heavily i left my hp in my back and forgot to take it out when i went to cheer for my sch. after we alighted at far east jun suggested we eat at subway. we settled down and each bought the foot long thingy. it was super big. eat till you drop! damn full after that. hahah. feel so fat now. sigh. i'm always fat larh. brought jun to view hps. we went to m1 shop first but the place is so small. brought him to the mega singtel store just before hmv. everytime i recommend him a hp he would have some negative comments to make larh. so fussy sia. it was still early so we went to hmv to jalan jalan. didn't know jun was an adidas fanatic. hahah. jun's super blur larh. i'm alr blur enough but someone's even blurrer than me. =p. after that i felt tired alr. got abit of headache. so decided to go off. i had to walk all the way from hmv to opposite far east that bus-stop larh. my day ended quite ok. just that somehow it sucks larh.
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5:57 PM
Sunday, May 15
it's 8 a.m and i'm waking up to blog. wanted to blog ytd. bleahs. was too tired to turn on the com. i must say the last two days have been great. and i mean really great k. went out with my friend since we decided that she should celebrate after her exams. i pon-ned fitness club training on friday and headed for town. i was alr running late. bad bad. that day had chinese compo. everything's in a rush larh. initially i thought we're supposed to hand in on that day since the previous compo we had to. anyway i quickly packed my stuffs and rushed out of class to the bus-stop. waited kinda long for the bus. by the time i reached fast east it was alr 3 plus. i'm late! argh. somemore had to walk all the way from far east to hmv to meet my friend. super far larh with my super heavy bag. sorry to keep you waiting for so long. i was like apologising profusely. we walked all the way to cine to get some stuffs then went to taka for a drink. so long since i had bubble tea! i love bubble tea. none of us wanted to eat so ended up getting drink lorh. after that went back to hmv to take neoprints. then on our way down the escalator damn sway larh. saw ppl from my class. hai. just my luck. the amount of ppl in walking to and fro i oso blur larh which bus-stop i have to go to return home. my friend accompanied me to the bus-stop opposite far east. so nice and sweet of her. along the way we got free coffee from star bucks. hahah. and there's this scary person who painted himself with gold paint all over. standing there motionlessly on an elevated platform. didn’t bother to find out what was it. but he looked damn scary larh. slept pretty well on friday night. i was tired but had a hell load of fun. esp the funny comments my friend made. hahah. hmm. yesterday night was as fun too! i called my friend up in the afternoon when i was studying at IMM. then she asked me if we could meet up at west mall at seven plus. i wasn't really sure if i could make it then. grandpa and mummy was doing shopping at giant hypermart. poor me had to study bcoz there's a chem test nxt week. thankfully brother was there to accompany me or i'l be bored to tears. when i returned to my grandparents' place i somehow managed to find time to go to westmall. when i reached westmall my friend needed to use my library card since her's is invalid. hahah. see larh never return overdue books that's why your card's invalid. you better return the books that you borrowed with my library card arh. i don't want to get fined! my friend suggested going to the arcade. we played the racing car game. hooray! i won. this shows that guys make better drivers larh. bleahs. i sound really childish. hahah. well i lost in king of fighters. i suck at fighting games. afterall i still had lotsa fun. who cares if it's childish. hahah. i enjoyed myself. that's what matters most! we went to the ground floor and there's this super funny game going on. we were laughing like siao. quite lame leh the game. since i told my grandparents i would return by 9 we went to the interchange and took 852 at like 8 plus. walked my friend home bcoz i felt it wasn't too safe for her to go home alone at night larh. made sure everything was well before i left. took 5-10 mins jog from my friend's house back to my grandparents' house. it's damn quiet and empty larh the roads which were leading to my grandparents' house. i got home with my body filled with sweat. yet another day well-spent! on the other hand i dread the upcoming exams. i chose the easy way out. enjoy first when i can. =p.
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8:00 PM
Wednesday, May 4
i've just taken a cool bath. decided to blog since i'm feeling kinda fresh now. went towning with the towning peeps from my class. daryl, ann, cariann, corny, jes, les, mich, elena, and last but not least willy! they're my wonderful companions of 1t38. so far till now school has been quite alright. more to the fun side. all thanks to my great class. not a moment of silence. our class is never quiet. always can hear infectious laughter and chit-chatting. hahah. we had a break at the coffee bean outlet at taka. slacked there for awhile. bought drinks. sat down. talked. and took pictures. the picture taking was really fun. imagine doing weird poses in public in front of so many people. hahah. but we enjoyed ourselves alot. shall chase elena for the pics. i can't wait to see the pics! time flies super fast when you're out. but during lectures. it's a different story altogether. and bio lecture today i was like going to fall asleep anytime. i forced les to make me stay awake. hahah. as usual chem lecture today i didn't quite get the teacher. was talking to les. and cariann made les the president of PIG club. hahah. so bad of her larh. it's such little things that adds more life and fun to our class! dancing is class is definitely fun too! i dance really lousily. hahah. but who cares. everyone is having fun when the music's on! sheesh. chinese test tomorrow. i need to get down to work. yay. ms lee wasn't her for maths today. ended up some 'genius' reliefing her who wasn't too straight. i almost jumped out of my skin larh. he has this freaky look of a maths nerd which sends shivers down my spine. ok. shalln't talk about him anymore. had enough of him in class alr. hahah. all the best for tomorrow's chinese test! corny joined jun and me for our fitness club training. corny's damn fit larh. he lifts weights with no difficulty. i was like struggling lorh. since when fitness club became so on. -faints-
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6:39 PM
Monday, May 2
[to c.q: it's been sometime since i heard from you. it's close to eight months ever since i've know you. i'm glad we can talk smoothly today. thank god. i hope we're still friends at least. i heard you're not too well lately. don't run too much. let your legs rest well. congrats for topping your level in english. i'm happy for you. i should've stayed awhile longer at beauty world. i didn't know your tuition ends at 8.40 pm. dad picked me up 10 mins before your tuition ended. what a wrong timing. if only i get to meet you. i really miss you all this while. alot. hope to catch up on you soon. thanks for the techno songs too!] it's almost two now.
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1:55 AM
Sunday, May 1
i've finally taken had my dinner and taken my bath. went for xy's birthday party somewhere in bukit timah. actually her bf's place. by the time i went there quite a handful was there alr. well i settled down. xy's friends ordered pizza. i just ate one piece but it was quite big. anyway i'm growing fat this days. if i had not taken for mich she wouldn't have anything left to eat. you better thank me. hahah. i really can't imagine how fast they ate. come to think of it i was taken by surprise the people xy mixes with. they were so different from the friends i know. maybe it's just me. but my other classmates there did highlight to me too. well i guess i won't say much since they're her secondary school pals i suppose. before we left her fellow classmates who are us from 1t38 sang her a birthday song. darcy and i kicked the soccer ball around the compound while waiting for elena and jes. i slipped and fell! the floor was so slippery bcoz it was kinda drizzling. i think it's bcoz i'm too fat and clumsy. hahah. mich's contacts came off while we were walking out and she spent quite sometime getting it back. if i wear contacts i'l be meddling with it like every 10 minutes. it's like something stucked right to your eyes. i'l never want to wear contacts. thankfully my eyes aren't that bad. i piggy-backed corny. heh. how was it? nice right? i told corny i would 'ferry' him to the nearest bus-stop. but i practically died half way. sheesh. i'm so weak. but it was still nice having to piggy-back you. i called mich to ask her to wait bcoz she was just opposite the road and i was heading towards beauty world. after i met she and ann then i remembered my soccer ball was with darcy and paddy. so i phoned darcy instructing him to bring back the ball on tuesday since it was brother's soccer ball. then mich was saying that i sounded like making an annoucement. really meh? i didn't know i sounded like that. as we were walking towards the traffic light we saw this weird looking person. reminds me of osama. the beardy features on him. somemore it's at night. mich, ann and i was totally freaked out. we were so scared. the three of us even crossed the road when it was red man. i called dad. told him i'l be meeting him at beauty world around half past eight. i offered to walk mich home since i was still early. but she insisted that i would trouble her. so she walked home herself instead. thankfully she got home safely. well ann went home herself too. and i walked to beauty world. even though it's night time i still felt damn hot. sweating all over. by the time i reached beauty world i went in to rest for awhile while waiting for daddy. i felt kinda hungry. by the time i got home it was close to nine. my parents bought back food for me. had pineapple rice with some other stuffs. had almond with longan for desert. it tasted so delicious. esp the pineapple rice. dinner wasn't too bad. it made up for the one piece of pizza i had. i feel quite tired now actually. shall end here. -yawns-
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9:47 PM