Sunday, May 22
i'm listening to music from groove coverage now as i'm blogging. they're pretty meaningful. the lyrics tells alot. i really love the songs. they can deviate my mind away from all the troubles in life. be it the trivial ones or the burdened ones. puts me in wonderous look why certain things in life goes against your way. esp something subtle and unpredictable like love. living an unwholesome 17 years surely did make me realise certain things are worth letting go. these are the things which you don't give a damn or a second look. on the contrary the happy and vivid memories which can put a smile on your face =) on a gloomy day are the stuffs that are worth keeping in your heart now and always. and most importantly the songs makes me want to dance too! remembered the times when i danced in class. so paiseh and ma-loo. no wonder everyone was like laughing their heads off. yucks! i enjoy dancing just that i can't dance well and properly larh. after being in a class for close to two months. hmm. i realised that there are two super segregated groups in my class. they are like the allied and axis larh. for me. i'm like on my own. i. myself. my own clique. same person. no idea whether it's a sad or happy thing. probably a mixture of feelings i guess. one clique has like 8 ppl. the other has 8 too i think. not sure either. bleahs. nvm. i was asking hui hui on friday when we were having prize ceremony in the freaking stuffy multi purpose hall at the place where they train teachers. forgot what the place is called also. super blur man! anyway i asked how come never go out together as a class with the other clique. then she was saying they all also never ask us to join them. oh well. quite true actually. someone has to take the initiative larh or else like that lorh. i'm still thinking how sway i was last friday larh. i was coming down from the escalator in hmv with my friend then shun xie shouted my name in a weird accent. then her whole clique turned to look at me larh. kinda dao-ed them. =p. somemore go round spreading rumours. super bad larh. hate this kinda ppl. but they did apologise. so i was like ok lorh. anyway girls like to gossip larh. hahah. cannot be helped. back to clique stuffs. i really don't want to be caught in a situation whereby i'm kind of like a tag along. something like let's say A guy talking to B girl and C just hangs around the both of them but hardly participates in the convo. even if i ain't accepted in class. i'm happy being an ex- josephian. 'once a josephian, always a josephian.' and from what i see there're many potential couples in my class. don't wish to type it out larh. such things sensitive mah. maybe i won't even get through my promotion exams larh. why think so far? life is but a dream. just like the song row your boat suggests. i believe and sure God has a plan for me. only start of sec 4 then i started being more participative in church. started singing the hymns and all. it just comes naturally larh. before that i'm like totally switched off in church lorh. someone in church has a really really sweet voice. she's in choir. bleahs. i'l never get to know her larh. but my family always sits near the choir. hees. it's been a few weeks since i saw her in church today again. she did intersessions. -winks- heh. grandma knows her mummy i think. =p. argh. my mind is flooded with groove coverage. time to stop now! i miss my long brother in sji. wonder if he will see this. probably not right. too busy with girls in jc alr. =D.
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