Friday, May 20
when i came back home. mummy asked me. 'chris did you play soccer today?' i was like. ya. apparently i didn't. sigh. today sucks larh. what a way to begin. but who cares. hmm. in the morning after letting brother off at sji daddy dropped me at the teacher's training centre there near botanical gardens. i thought i was early. but i saw quite a few people there. when i walked in met sean lee. my classmate in sec 1 and 2. asked him what was he doing here so early then he said was supposed to set up the sound system. so cool. he's in film and video club. i love photography. but sadly it's an expensive hobby. i'm way too poor to afford. so i can well forget it. i offered to help set up the sound system since i had nothing to do at that time. waited for my classmates to arrive. assembled on the field at 7 plus. then the soccer guys had to report at 9 plus i think. so my class ppl told me i was supposed to play since i did sign up. was kinda surprised. actually was totally caught by surprise bcoz the tcr told me i wasn't registered to play. hmm. then there was nothing i could do. so i just had to accept it lorh. but the match starts at 10:10. after they reported and we went back to our bags elena wanted to take pics of the class team. i was like. don't want larh. i also not playing for the class. after much persuasion i chin chai took pics with them. felt so extra larh bcoz i wasn't even going to play lorh. it reminds me of the very different times when i was in sji. everyone who signed up gets to play no matter what. really love the sji spirit. brings back good memories. even though the team wasn't on a winning streak everyone still gets a chance to be on the field. that is when a class can really bond well and overcome all odds together. every player sees the best in each other. winning isn't everything though ppl might disapprove of what i say. it's the satisfaction you get when actually work towards something you have in mind. of course there's always room for improvement. i'm a really imperfect person with lotsa flaws. i don't ask for much. i won't even mind if my entire class depise me. i feel like a class reject. always wanting to do my part but i ain't perfect enough. you guys did well in soccer today. keep up the good work. i tried not to bemoan or anything. since i knew i wasn't going to play. i'm far from good but how i wish i we could play as a class together. that's just all i ask for. well true enough i didn't manage to. went for a morning jog to botanical gardens ALL alone by myself. how sad. indeed it is. but i must admit it's a really nice feeling with the greenery surrounding you. the serenity just simply diverts my mind away from all the unhappy stuffs and troubled world i am in. unfortunately. on my way back met quite a few of my old friends. caught up with them on some stuffs. by the time i came back the match has started. but didn't really go to the pitch and support. had some other stuffs to attend to. i only when there when the match was half way through. heh. the sun really kills. it's like draining all my energy away. so frustrating. did'nt do much except for the jogging but i alr felt deadbeat. jun was telling me about how he disliked his class. but at least you still got to play netball with your class. you ought to feel happy yeah. i doubt you'l read this. hahah. bcoz you don't even know my blog. i've always wanted to play as a team with my class. bleahs. forget it. i'l never happen larh. so i shalln't think so much. the soccer boots which i got for my bday present. hmm. maybe it should be a class boots. i don't really play field soccer much. more of those on concrete ground. after all the games ended still had to proceed to the multi purpose hall for prize giving. the hall was super stuffy. there was practically no ventilation at all. sucks larh. i sat alone. obviously i was. then susan started talking to her clique about my friend with me at hmv last friday. hai. they all started asking funny and weird stuffs. i can't be bothered. waited impatiently for the prize giving to end then jun wanted to go town to have lunch and he was thinking of getting a new hp. so i suggested that we eat first then i'l bring him to view hps. since he was alright with it and i was fine too we walked all the way till the bus-stop one stop after sji. didn't want to go out with my class. for whatever reason i have on mind. anyway they were going for pool. i hate pool! and i don't really click with the stuffs my class ppl talk and do. initially was ok. but now. i don't know larh. maybe it's bcoz i didn't want to mix around much with them. except for leslie. but since les's following them. then like that lorh. hi five. jun hates pool like i do. jun and i was talking and talking along the way till our mouths almost ran dry. makes me change the impression of st pats' guys. just didn't have a good impression of them. if i remembered correctly my samsung flip-phone got stolen in sec 3 when st pats' ppl came down to my school for rugby. shyt them larh. i was so stupid leh. since it was raining quite heavily i left my hp in my back and forgot to take it out when i went to cheer for my sch. after we alighted at far east jun suggested we eat at subway. we settled down and each bought the foot long thingy. it was super big. eat till you drop! damn full after that. hahah. feel so fat now. sigh. i'm always fat larh. brought jun to view hps. we went to m1 shop first but the place is so small. brought him to the mega singtel store just before hmv. everytime i recommend him a hp he would have some negative comments to make larh. so fussy sia. it was still early so we went to hmv to jalan jalan. didn't know jun was an adidas fanatic. hahah. jun's super blur larh. i'm alr blur enough but someone's even blurrer than me. =p. after that i felt tired alr. got abit of headache. so decided to go off. i had to walk all the way from hmv to opposite far east that bus-stop larh. my day ended quite ok. just that somehow it sucks larh.
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