Sunday, June 5
i never knew i'm so weak till the day i've lost everything about you. last friday went pretty well except when my day was coming to an end things didn't go that well. friday morning went to school for lessons. chem lectures and lessons all the way till close to one i think. after that i kinda rushed to the bus-stop and boarded 132 for town. met you when i boarded the bus 171 at the hmw bus-stop. we kinda listened to music all along the way until we alighted at marina. while we were walking through millenia walk only then i realised that you were so afraid of heights! but you told me before that you love roller-coasters alot. it's been ages since i've been on a roller coaster. i like the feeling when you were like cringing behind my arm whenever you looked at the reflection of the high ceiling on the ground. after you got your drink we proceeded to suntec. then you wanted me to follow you to star factory. didn't regret going to the arcade with you. but i must say i rarely go to arcades. i think you're the only person that can make me go. bcoz i will treasure every moment i have with you. and how could you? you wanted me to play dance dance revolution with you. i'm really lousy like shyt. but as long as i can see you have fun and enjoy yourself it's good enough for me. seeing you happy truly makes my day. after dancing we went to play daytona. you won one race. i won one. yay! we are even. after racing you wanted to play dancing again. i was like omg. again? well after much persuasion by you i did give in. i must admit you're like many many times better than me. luckily the arcade was quite empty. or not i will be super paiseh. you danced so gracefully. after dancing and all i was drenched in sweat! weird right? air-conditioned place still perspire. i told you i needed rest and we went all the way down to the first storey and seated at the glass benches. then we started talking. you were like super funny. asking me my bag so big put what. condom arh? hahah. wait till i make fun of you then you know. i talked about my sch for a short while and you were saying 'don't talk about studies alr.' we sat there. relaxed. and listened to music. how could you call me 'gong'. think i don't understand arh? i understand every word you say k. ok larh. i'm stupid. you saw my chem test 10/40. hahah. we listened to linkin park - numb (piano version). you told me you listen to that song everytime you feel sad. next time when we listen to that song again. we wipe away each other's tears alright. how we started as friends ended as friends too. in between there were the very special moments we shared. those are the times that i will never forget. wish you won't forget them too. you said you still treat me as your friend. still friends to one another till today. hopefully forever. but you definitely mean more than just a friend to me. oh ya. i remembered singing blue - you make me wanna for you. i said i knew the lyrics and you forced me to sing for you. you said i didn't sound too bad. but i think you're better. you were once from choir leh. after slacking and talking we left for esplanade. i was really blur with the directions i must say. we ended up walking in circles. suntec's so big! we still made it there. when we stepped in esplanade we went to the place where they had the jigsaw puzzle art. it was so beautiful. it was even more beautiful with you by my side. then we went to the roof terrace. since you said you've never been up there so we went there! the scenery was just so captivating. the few couples i saw. wish we could be like them. ever since back then when you told me i wasn't that special someone in your life anymore. i guess it would never happen or would take a long long time before we could. i helped you take pics since it's the first time you've gone up there. for me it's my second time. been there with brother and mummy once. you look really pretty in the pictures i took for you. trust me when i say you are. you never fail to put a smile on my face when i see your beautiful smile. =). you asked me if we could go into the place where they those leather chairs which looked real comfortable. too bad we're not VIPs. you complained that it was hot so i brought you to the library. the first time i came here i didn't step into the library. so actually this is my first time being in the library. the ambience was so romantic. you telling me that the whole esplanade would be even more romantic when it's night time. yeap. i totally agree. everything's romantic when i spend time with you. it's really sad that now we're friends only. i've always been the one letting you down. i took your love for granted. i only realised when you told me i wasn't your special someone anymore. but going out with you still makes me happy. i've regretted doing things against your will. your gentle will. i know i'l never make up to you this lifetime. when i was in the library i never and didn't dare hold your hand. i remembered the first we held hands was also the last. the feeling was just so good. i cycled from kap to beauty to meet you at night. the day was 26/03 right? i still remembered when i called you i saw you picking up your hp from the bush behind. hehe. you didn't spot me. you looked so cute turning around looking for me. i spotted you first! those were our happy times. you asked me if i wanted to drink something. i didn't want to. so instead i went to macdonald's to get a cup of water for you and me. we started walking and chatting under the moonlight. time passed so fast. it was approaching ten. super dark along the stretch of road which i was supposed to cycle in to go back to grandparents' house. you walked me to the stretch of road. then you pointed to the 'banana plant' on the tree. that's not a banana plant! it's bird's nest fern. hahah. when we said goodbye to each other. we hugged each other for the very first time. i couldn't bear to let you go. you were so sweet. we had a really memorable and happy past. i will never forget. after that day things weren't so smooth for us. the mistakes i did to you. had such a great impact on you. i know it's too late. i'm sorry from the bottom of my heart. my greatest regret in life is to see you loving someone else. i've told you this before. yeap. my greatest regret. stay happy with your darling. on friday you told me 'from the start i knew we couldn't be together. from the day i knew you. everything you've done meant nothing. i don't have any feelings for you anymore.' sigh. i hope i still get to hear from you. really do. if only i could turn back time. you will get the best of everything.
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6:03 PM