Friday, July 29
of all moments i'm falling sick now! it's so irritating. well i still have to go down for ndp preview show tml morning at 10.30. it simply sucks! and maybe i'l not be performing bcoz my knees are still not that alright. see how everything goes tml. past few days i've been going for running. yeap. just ran from cjc to acs (b) on wed and today. my legs feel so tired now. anyway life's a tiring and ardous journey that i'm so sick of everything. ytd night i had to stay up till 2am just to complete my bio assignment. and i don't think i'l can pass it. so in a way it'l still be a waste of my effort. sigh. i hate to be sick! and why can't the ppl-in-charge of ndp at least give us tickets for ndp?! i've been BEGGING them for tickets but they don't seem to care at all. i spent time rehearsing and performing for so many past weeks and they don't even wish to give us tickets. i'm going to give them a sia lan attitude tml. since they don't care i won't give a damn either. i realised the ppl ard me in class are working so hard! really hard. and i only feel dumber and dumber each day. omg. i better finish try and finish up my bio tutorial by today. i'l be busy like anything. there's funfair in church this sunday. i'm looking forward to it! i haven't even flipped through the questions. hahah. that's like so slack. my whole saturday will be RUINED by ndp again. thankfully i just got myself a mp3 player. or else i'l be bored to bits tml. it's quite a good deal for a 20gb zen touch though this model's been around for quite some time. but i'm not that choosy. anything goes. PE sucks today. a group of us was kinda late and we had to be punished by doing push-ups. damn sway. and i didn't know why i did one-arm push-ups either. perhaps i've too much adrenaline. =p. anyway any ordinary person can do it yeah. it's not that difficult after all. i should be getting down with work now. -big sigh-
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10:40 PM
Monday, July 25
yay! =). i'm blogging again. it's becoming less and less frequent since i last blogged. nonetheless i have so much to blog. but i've simply NO time. argh. i've been so so busy with school and ndp shows. ndp is both a physical and mental torture! i can't wait for it to be over. see. there's another ndp preview show coming up this saturday. i really dread it. oh my gosh. i kinda injured my knee while playing captain's ball after PE. don't know if i will be able to make it for the ndp show this saturday. hopefully my legs. yeap. both legs feel better. =p. i'm not wearing long pants to school until my legs recover. it's like so troublesome having wounded knees and wearing long pants. i don't even know how i got a cut on my nose when i fell. i was in such a blurry state. lied on the ground for quite abit before i went to the toilet to wash up the blood and all. yuck! so gross. i hate to get wounded. anyway who likes?! hmm. last saturday ptm was more on the bad side. probably bcoz my results suck like shyt. i only passed one subject. just imagine how dumb can i be. only ONE subject. actually i find my gp which i passed quite a fluke oso. i haven't been doing exactly well for gp. the essays i did before my midyr gp were like 20/50 at most. quite happy that i scored 27/50 this time round. hahah. the stuffs on mass media i memorised at the last minute did help abit. apart from gp my parents were totally angry with my results. what to do? never study hard enough that's why results turn out like that. if i studied dutifully and i still get 4 Fs i can ask myself to go and die. personally i feel that i'm very struggling alot now with all the new stuffs and work i'm facing in school everyday. i wish i could take a little moment out from my hateful life and escape from reality. everytime i think of doing so there's just so much work piling on my back. sometimes i just sit there staring blankly into space. i'm really at my wit's end! studies aside. =). last saturday was the last time i would have seen my ex-classmate as he will be leaving overseas to further his studies. i kinda 'zhao' from the ndp thing at 1 plus to meet quite a few of my ex-classmates at far-east. includes clifton, damien, ziwei, jee yuen, wu yuan, ashley, titus, pik yang, patrick and of course eugene! what a coincidence. i called up clifton and he happened to be around far-east too. i got him to meet up with us. and true enough i've been missing him alot!! finally get to go out with him. hahah. we had a pretty fun time talking and walking around. 404 rocks! after slacking and chatting at far-east basement we walked to meridien but somehow we didn't end up playing pool or LAN. went to paradiz. shared drinks. the highlight was playing arm-wrestling at the macs there. oh my god. clifton grew #%^$^& times stronger. he has got himself a really cool handphone. i'm jealous. =p. jee yuen and me couldn't even win him! so irritating. eugene's stillthe best! acjc swim team! no wonder so pro. by then it was almost 4.30. i remembered i still have to return to padang for ndp show. i left with clifton and wu yuan. before leaving gave eugene a sweet good-bye hug. hopefully he'l remember me! :). if you happen to read this wish you all the best eugene! when i rushed back to padang it was just right. dinner was ready alr. hahah. such good timing. then everything was sian as we were there waiting for our turn to perform for the night. bleah. my firework thingy had some technical problem. i think the circuit was connected wrongly or something. anyway after everything was over we quickly went back to our holding area and washed up. i tired to be naughty. =p. i went to the fountain near-by to wash. since i find it a faster and more convenient way to wash up. heard from my friends that they got caught for washing all the dirty paint off there body in the esplanade toilet. damn sway. after finished washing i gave leslie a call to see if i could meet up with my class first before going home. leslie told me they were somewhere by the river at clake quay. well when i reached there. there was a gig going on. it looks quite entertaining to me and i stayed throughout the whole performance till it ended at like 11.00. i spotted my class peeps. they were sitting somewhere behind the stage. but i didn't join them. they were alr quite happy chatting away. maybe i would be like an extra if i just barge in and sit down? sigh. esplanade is definitely not a very good place for me. i can't stop myself from thinking what would go through my mind whenever i step into that place. it's like something overcoming you without you being able to control it. especially when i was leaving the place. i could feel all the past memories coming back alive in my mind. i wish everything i had could come back to me once again. my class peeps called out to me when they were leaving that place while i was just looking up ahead to the river. the night scenery is really capitivating and romantic. was quite surprised my class peeps actually spotted me. i walked with them to the bus stop. michelle's dad or borther was picking her up at the taxi-stand. for the second time i didn't take a lift from her. well i guess i needed some quiet time for myself alone. she probably think i'm stupid enough to reject a lift. i need to stop blogging now. i still have work to catch up on! nevertheless i enjoyed the singing and guitar playing throughout the musical. although there were only two people performing but i must say they rocked! [we're miles apart. sometimes i wish you were the one beside the river.]
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6:38 PM
Thursday, July 14
oh my goodness. i've alvl chinese oral tomorrow. hopefully i won't screw up. i alr screwed up my midyrs like shyt. i'm too embarassed to type out my grades. maybe i should so when other ppl sees it they'l like tell me you better buck up yeah. hahah. anyway so far i've got back my bio, chem and maths. and it seriously went real bad. i remembered tina saying she feels like dying. yeah. i agree! i got 4 Fs. the feeling's really like dying lorh. for bio i had 25%, for maths i scored 27%, and chem was the highest so far i think! but nothing to be proud of. it's jus 29%. i didn't pass my chinese either. but it's an AO subject. and i can't even pass it for pete's sake! i always think i'm not cut out to be studying in pursuing a jc education. ms soh was saying in class. all of you are around 13 pointers. and if your other peers can make it so can you. oh my goodness larh. i can't imagine how ppl study man. all i know is that jc is madness. even i can't even find time to take a proper breather which is so sickening larh. oh ya. i have to attend a compulsory ndp rehearsal tml at krangi camp in preparation for the NE show this coming saturday. i'm looking forward to ann's brother's wedding. anyway i don't think she'l read this. but still thanks for inviting me. today after school we all kinda went to coro to slack. quite a big group of us! which includes ann, cari, corny, elena, weixin, mich, xiao yan. daryl, jes, les and terence joined us abit later bcoz they had chi oral. come to think of it i can't even speak fluent mandarin now! argh. i didn't really eat there bcoz i had eaten one big bowl of yong tao fu in sch bfore bio lecture. i almost couldn't finish it. but i didn't want to waste. =p. so i forced everything down. made me so full larh. spending time with the class can really cheer me up from all my stupidity scoring 4 Fs and all. thanks ppl! i wanted to go home initially but everyone was like asking each other to come along larh. and true enough we had a great time joking ard and talking! if only my 4 Fs were 4 As. okayy. i'm dreaming. it can never happen to me in my life. it's just wishful thinking on my part. good luck to me tml! i shall get myself familiar with chinese now. =).
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7:57 PM
Sunday, July 10
i've been so busy lately with ndp rehearsals. just had two this week. the people in-charge are really over-demanding fcukers. they got everyone into a super-pissed state. and how come it's always the ppl who are in the fireworks event that gets to leave last?! heh. it's not only me complaining. so many others too! well i got to know quite a few ppl through the rehearsals and made friends with them. which was quite a good thing. =). yesterday night it was the first time ever i've shot fireworks. it went really cool. except our event kinda screwed up. but anyway i think i wasn't in coordination with the music. everyone around me wasn't doing the same stuffs. i never even got myself used to the music beats and all. i still continued to fire when the part of the music was over. who gives a damn larh. i just had to make sure i fired. or not it would be a freaking waste of my time. out of the 50+ ppl only like 26 ppl were selected. thankfully i was selected or else i would have to wait till next week before i actually get to play around with the fireworks. =p. before we stepped onto the road to get ready for the rehearsal we had to do some pre-preparations. like wearing the make-up. collecting our costumes. the make-up part was yucks! we had to wear this glossy make up on our faces, hands, legs, etc. then everything ended still had to waste so much time washing up. i totally hate it man! the way the ppl-in-charge did and arranged stuffs was so inefficient and dumb. =p. i wish i could beat every single one of them to knock some sense into their thick skull! waiting time was a really big problem. aiyah. this and that also have to wait. i rather they all go and die larh. oh my goodness. i remembered they are going to arrange a rehearsal next wednesday. they are so cruel ppl. argh. i can't stand the way the do things. i feel really sorry for my fellow classmates. esp corny, bryan, daryl, leslie, willy. how could the ppl-in-charge made them wait the whole afternoon till night practically doing nothing? the worst things is doing something not productive at all like wasting a whole afternoon away. i kinda served them doing meals not to make them feel so bad about everything. yeap. it's like the and the mr tan made it sound so nice that FREE costumes would be provided. -puke- the costumes are like shyt larh. what's the big deal if they are free. after i was on with all the glossy stuff on my body only then they told us it's dinner time. i was telling myself. wtf?! how to eat with all the glossy stuff all over my body? they are damn dumb larh. why can't they let us have a good meal before applying all those stuffs? i want to transfer to fabric of the nation to join my class! =p. okayy. enough said for ndp. i was only dismissed at 10.30 yesterday! i walked out with the hockey guys. and was talking to trevor. he's this guy who was formerly from sji too. sji rocks! so do the ppl there! =p. he asked me something about my class while waiting at the traffic light. and we started talking for quite abit. until when we crossed the road i tried finding which bus-stop had 171 to bring me to kap. michelle called out to me! i was quite surprised actually. why was she not home yet? then michelle who's always being nice wanted to offer me a lift. so i was okie! ann was with her too. so we chatted till while waiting for her bro to pick us up. really need to thank her and her brother. if not i'l be back super late. probably after mid-night. her family's car so big and comfortable. can fall asleep inside. hahah. her brother's a crazy muscle man larh! arms so super big. i'm jealous! i wonder how much training ppl undergo. when i got down from her car. oh sheesh. then i remembered i left my shoes inside. i'm like so blur and forgetful. i gave er qing a call when i'm walking to my grandparents' house. the road which i was walking took me about 5-10 mins. but i sat down on the pavement and spent time talking to her before i made my way home. i felt so lazy to take bath. but in the end i still did. hygenic purposes. bleah. sometimes when i'm so tired i don't even brush my teeth. hahah. after bathing i went to lie in bed and less than 5 mins i fell asleep. i know that's fast. i'm such a pig larh. and i wasn't late for church today! phew. ALMOST. but wasn't. thankfully larh. i still have bio, chem and maths assignments to complete. what rotten luck! =p.
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5:07 PM
Saturday, July 2
i sure miss blogging! lately i've been busy with stuffs. sick and tired of all the exams! so far my chances of passing midyrs are like less than 5%. hahah. that's like so really bad. my brain cannot take so much facts larh. anyway exams aside. bleah. i still have one last paper nxt tues. argh. that means my weekend isn't totally going to be fun. =(. all my SPAs went alright so far i think. i hope. hahah. today's bio SPA i did fake the readings abit. bcoz the first experiment i did. my potatoe cylinder wasn't exactly 8 cm. aiyah. i don't even know if it would affect my weight change %. so the second set of experiment i cut properly lorh. then when i was plotting my table the examiner was walking by. and when he looked at my paper. he must be going like. huh? how come got weight change % for both sets of experiment the weights of the potatoe for the first column still empty. hahah. but the results were altered so they fell within the 0.1% range. that's super cheat larh. but i remembered mrs yap saying. die die oso cannot have anomalous. so i did some maths here and there to find the values for the weights of set 1 lorh. our class played soccer after bio SPA. it's been quite sometime since we played as a class. fun fun! although my head ached quite abit while playing but it's so fun larh. i didn't want to stop. played till like 4 i think until my energy was drained by the sun. only then i rested. =p. elena wanted to go by then. since i was going to the canteen. so chin chai walked her to the bus-stop larh. then while walking back saw celina. leslie's hockey gal! hahah. her class is jus nxt to mine larh. but didn't really get to talk to her until today. talked to her for quite abit. enough to make my legs go weak. okayy. i alr tired myself out from soccer. she was walking towards the bus-stop that direction. i asked her where she was going and she said sji. i was like huh? sji you sure? i don't even know cj track and field ppl trains at sji lorh. those who are doing high jump and long jump those kind i think. so coincidental. since she was going sji and my brother's having training in sch too so we walked behind that stretch of road to sji lorh. can save her bus-fare somemore. hahah. and she really can talk non-stop. like what leslie tells me. she's pretty sociable. i agree too! wah. her 2.4 timing is pro can. faster than me by almost half a minute when i was in sec1. when we reached sji she went off for her training then i went to meet my tcrs. like my ncc tcr who teaches brother now. didn't know he was formally from cj too. my sec3 physics tcr too! when i told him out of my sciences i scored the highest for physics at olvls. a2. he was like laughing larh. bcoz in sji i always fail physics wan mah. maybe i did surprise him? probably larh. saw alot of familiar faces. esp quite a few of my juniors. then waited in the canteen with brother after his training for daddy to pick us up. when i came home quickly went to bath and took my dinner. then off i went to sleep. got spitting headache larh. thankfully now it's better. if not i wouldn't be blogging here now. =p. shall turn in soon. my body seriously needs rest. it's been like so long since i played soccer. yeap. but i did have a good time playing larh. -yawns-
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