Monday, July 25
yay! =). i'm blogging again. it's becoming less and less frequent since i last blogged. nonetheless i have so much to blog. but i've simply NO time. argh. i've been so so busy with school and ndp shows. ndp is both a physical and mental torture! i can't wait for it to be over. see. there's another ndp preview show coming up this saturday. i really dread it. oh my gosh. i kinda injured my knee while playing captain's ball after PE. don't know if i will be able to make it for the ndp show this saturday. hopefully my legs. yeap. both legs feel better. =p. i'm not wearing long pants to school until my legs recover. it's like so troublesome having wounded knees and wearing long pants. i don't even know how i got a cut on my nose when i fell. i was in such a blurry state. lied on the ground for quite abit before i went to the toilet to wash up the blood and all. yuck! so gross. i hate to get wounded. anyway who likes?! hmm. last saturday ptm was more on the bad side. probably bcoz my results suck like shyt. i only passed one subject. just imagine how dumb can i be. only ONE subject. actually i find my gp which i passed quite a fluke oso. i haven't been doing exactly well for gp. the essays i did before my midyr gp were like 20/50 at most. quite happy that i scored 27/50 this time round. hahah. the stuffs on mass media i memorised at the last minute did help abit. apart from gp my parents were totally angry with my results. what to do? never study hard enough that's why results turn out like that. if i studied dutifully and i still get 4 Fs i can ask myself to go and die. personally i feel that i'm very struggling alot now with all the new stuffs and work i'm facing in school everyday. i wish i could take a little moment out from my hateful life and escape from reality. everytime i think of doing so there's just so much work piling on my back. sometimes i just sit there staring blankly into space. i'm really at my wit's end! studies aside. =). last saturday was the last time i would have seen my ex-classmate as he will be leaving overseas to further his studies. i kinda 'zhao' from the ndp thing at 1 plus to meet quite a few of my ex-classmates at far-east. includes clifton, damien, ziwei, jee yuen, wu yuan, ashley, titus, pik yang, patrick and of course eugene! what a coincidence. i called up clifton and he happened to be around far-east too. i got him to meet up with us. and true enough i've been missing him alot!! finally get to go out with him. hahah. we had a pretty fun time talking and walking around. 404 rocks! after slacking and chatting at far-east basement we walked to meridien but somehow we didn't end up playing pool or LAN. went to paradiz. shared drinks. the highlight was playing arm-wrestling at the macs there. oh my god. clifton grew #%^$^& times stronger. he has got himself a really cool handphone. i'm jealous. =p. jee yuen and me couldn't even win him! so irritating. eugene's stillthe best! acjc swim team! no wonder so pro. by then it was almost 4.30. i remembered i still have to return to padang for ndp show. i left with clifton and wu yuan. before leaving gave eugene a sweet good-bye hug. hopefully he'l remember me! :). if you happen to read this wish you all the best eugene! when i rushed back to padang it was just right. dinner was ready alr. hahah. such good timing. then everything was sian as we were there waiting for our turn to perform for the night. bleah. my firework thingy had some technical problem. i think the circuit was connected wrongly or something. anyway after everything was over we quickly went back to our holding area and washed up. i tired to be naughty. =p. i went to the fountain near-by to wash. since i find it a faster and more convenient way to wash up. heard from my friends that they got caught for washing all the dirty paint off there body in the esplanade toilet. damn sway. after finished washing i gave leslie a call to see if i could meet up with my class first before going home. leslie told me they were somewhere by the river at clake quay. well when i reached there. there was a gig going on. it looks quite entertaining to me and i stayed throughout the whole performance till it ended at like 11.00. i spotted my class peeps. they were sitting somewhere behind the stage. but i didn't join them. they were alr quite happy chatting away. maybe i would be like an extra if i just barge in and sit down? sigh. esplanade is definitely not a very good place for me. i can't stop myself from thinking what would go through my mind whenever i step into that place. it's like something overcoming you without you being able to control it. especially when i was leaving the place. i could feel all the past memories coming back alive in my mind. i wish everything i had could come back to me once again. my class peeps called out to me when they were leaving that place while i was just looking up ahead to the river. the night scenery is really capitivating and romantic. was quite surprised my class peeps actually spotted me. i walked with them to the bus stop. michelle's dad or borther was picking her up at the taxi-stand. for the second time i didn't take a lift from her. well i guess i needed some quiet time for myself alone. she probably think i'm stupid enough to reject a lift. i need to stop blogging now. i still have work to catch up on! nevertheless i enjoyed the singing and guitar playing throughout the musical. although there were only two people performing but i must say they rocked! [we're miles apart. sometimes i wish you were the one beside the river.]
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