Friday, August 12
i still have loads of work untouched. but since it's a friday. hooray! the weekends are approaching. i shall type a little entry here. today was damn tiring for me. i slept at like 2.30am yesterday! it's an extremely bad habit that i have. seriously need to kick that habit. most of the time in school today i was like using my reserved energy to keep myself awake. but it doesn't really seem to work. sigh. i hate it when i get insufficient sleep. bcoz i won't have any mood for anything. my morning went kinda gloomy. when i reached school i went to the study area near grandstand to do my chem. suddenly remember ms soh saying that we need to complete till ques 3. did and did till mich and ann walked past and they came over to where i was sitting. went up with them to our class. then i continued doing my chem till it was time for assembly. it was such a pain. completing work last minute. but at least i managed to finish two ques. then doing chem tutorial i actually volunteered to do a ques on the board. most likely bcoz i wanted to know if what i did was correctly presented. after chem was maths tutorial. oh my goodness. i failed my maths test again. -big sigh- why am i so stupid?! other ppl are getting 30+ and i only got a miserable 24. well ms lee pasted a sticker on my test paper. maybe it serves as a form of encouragement for me to work harder? yeap. sometimes the feeling of throwing in the cards and giving up gets so strong that i wish i could just escape from reality. facing reality and going through all the shyt i'm facing. be it school work or other crappy stuffs. it simply sucks like shyt! my mindset towards studying has always been so bad that i can't be bothered to put in the effort that i need to. work aside first. i can't stand the insumountable stress piling on my back. one fine day i'l just explode and burst like a balloon. today's PE was quite slack. didn't do much except for netball. i played really badly. sorry team! when our class went for warm-up run i was at the grandstand chatting with hazel. obviously she's quite pissed with someone. sigh. why is there so much sadness going on in the world? is there such a thing as eternal happiness? i doubt so. all i wish is to lead a fulfilling life. a life that is worthwhile for me to look forward to. ppl around me definitely makes my life a better one. they're wonderful ppl who can bring joy into my life. ultimately happiness lies in my own hands. and of course i would want to remain happy for as long as i can. looking back when we first met. things went pretty smooothly and well. it just takes something. something to... it's been quite sometime alr. i shall not let it affect me. just that when my mind wanders away i think deeply. i constantly tell myself i must be strong and hold on firmly to hope. a hope which will never fails to give me a bright future. i mustn't be dumb. i must face the real world with audacity! during chinese lesson today it was fun and fun and fun! lao shi played tong hua and since that's the only chinese song i could sing i sang along! elena and mich joined in too. seems like we were the only three singing. hahah. enjoyed it so much. i wish we could learn to sing a new chinese song every lesson. but that would never happen right? -ponders- in the afternoon gp mock was on. so we had to stay back till 5 plus. after that elena said she left her hp in class. aloy had the keys and elena asked me to tag along. hahah. scared aloy take advantage of you is it?! =p. oh ya. and along the way i must say that sick little elena has gone insane! i think i'm insane too! hahah. time to sleep. -yawns-
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