Thursday, October 6
another tiring day for me. after exams just let it all out! run and run. yeah. running rocks =D. NE test today went very bad. i haven't been touching the newspapers for ages. exams and all going on for the past few weeks. i can't be bothered to even browse through the newspapers. how bad can that be. i don't know what's happening around me! i'm a blurhead. i can say more than 70% of the questions i had doubts. anyway after NE test went for fitness club briefing than jun and i proceeded to run. we had a hard time finding people to help us take care of our bags. in the end i suggested that we keep them in the office. it's pretty safe there i guess. again! the sun drove me nuts. i was running with my strained legs. and they definitely are jun! don't say i'm faking. i'm not okayy. running was complete madness. 35 mins! oh my goodness. jun wasn't feeling well. hmm. vommitted at the 32nd min. aiyo. push himself till like that. but still he's a much better runner than me. he was from x-country. 4 years of training. and i'm like a super weak shyt with poor stamina and all. but nonetheless we always go running when we have the time. marcus waited for us 'patiently' in school =p. btw i got to know marcus through jun. somehow i find that even though they are from a totally different class from me i'm still close to them. got to know marcus just a few weeks ago. hmm. he can be quite a great friend. jun's my good friend too. i'm thankful god gave me such wonderful pals. it's saddening. i'm not even close to any guy in my class. it's the not so close feeling i suppose. hmm. aloy's perfectly fine. daryl's perfectly fine too. leslie used to be really close to me. but somehow we're not so close now. is it because of the seating arrangement our teacher changed a few months ago? i really don't know. unlikely. everything in class seems to be in a mess after god knows when. even though now some things are clearer i still don't know how to react to certain situations. -nobody knows what is it to be like that- there's alot more i need to learn in life. especially when you're being dealt with a situation. what should you do then it's considered appropiate? can you tell if something goes wrong? i'm so lost when it comes to such rhetorical questions. they seemingly turn my mind upside down. i hope for a better school life. or just rid me of the pressure i face in school when i meet people. they will never realise when one truly cares and shows concern. there will be many activities coming up. inter-class games. retreat. and a nyaa trip to mawai as well. time to relex and enjoy. but i don't deserve to relax as much as those we mugged their heads off for promos. i'm still as slack as ever even when it comes to exams. i'm quite useless actually. minister for education will be coming down to cj tml. i shall complain to him how sucky jc is. i sound like such a complain king. bet i wouldn't have the guts to do so. but everyone would argee it sucks right? it does! studying just drives people nuts. and it's so not unhealthy and lifeless to study and study your life away. i pity those muggers out there. bleah =p.
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