Friday, October 21
i've been 'working' on my pw for the past few days. like what most ppl say. pw really sucks =p. our group leader's down with fever. counting today she hasn't been in sch for 3 days alr. so elena took over as the leader. haha. i stayed up till almost 2 ytd becoz i couldn't get the piechart done and shun xie had to help me out even though she isn't from my group. credit goes to shun xie as she helped me out patiently with our group's written report. particularly the part on pie charts. i think tina sent her to check on us since she's unwell. ele went out with her princeyy. i shall publicly announce in my blog becoz there's still pw to do ele! i find that she's someone weird. waking up at a strange time like 3 in the morning to edit the written report =p. but i must say she's super efficient. i like her style and attitude towards work. never say die or give up mindset. no wonder she did pretty well for promos. congrats ele =). unlike someone here who deserves to be shot. i'm still thinking over and over again. why can't i just get myself promoted to j2? why must things turn out the way that i might lose contact with my friends in cj? why am i always faced with such anguish? thoughts just keep coming to me. sigh. i can't bear to leave cj. after getting my results i knew that i wasn't even elegible for the supplementary papers which were kind of second chances for me to clear j1 and move on to the next year in college. i'm happy that i acutally improved for all my subjects. didn't improve for gp though. but well for other subjects i did. i know it would be very silly of me to type out my lousy grades here but who cares. it's for me to reflect and think about. this time for chem i improved till i almost obtained an E. i was 1 mark away from an E. argh. maths i scored 41 compared to the 27% i had during midyears. for biology i improved the least. my biology is still my lowest subject like it has always been : (. this time for the promotional exam i had an O. and no one in my class obtained an F. omgoodness. which means i'm the lowest in class. i deserve it since i didn't put in the extra effort i ought to. here's a summary of my overall grades. bio : 33%, chem : 41%, maths : 39%. it's good that i cleared both my languages. but i mean what's the point if i can't even get an E. that sucks. argh. whenever i think about my results i feel very bad inside. i wasted one year of my life. it's definitely true and i can say from my bottom my heart that throughout my 1o years of education jc life stands out from the rest. after sch ytd followed ann, aloy, corny, ele, leslie, mich to bukit timah market to eat. yeap. ann asked me to follow and since i had nothing on i tagged along. on our way to the market i told leslie that one day i shall invite him down to bukit timah for soccer and lunch at my grandparents' place. i ordered fried carrot cake as usual. didn't intend to eat anything heavy as i had food waiting for me at home alr. i bought a plate of fried carrot cake for ele and the rest to share. hmm. come to think of it while i was having the food it very much seems like a farewell meal. anyway it was enjoyable for me to at least have a good meal with my class peeps. i had to leave early and leslie followed me to the road junction. so nice of him =D. and after i crossed the road i started mad chasing the 184 bus. thankfully i reached the bus-stop on time. after i reached home dinner was ready. had my dinner and bath. discussed other alternatives with mummy if i'm not allowed to take the supplementary papers. dota-ed my way through the night with brandon, aloy, corny and daryl. just one word. FUN. looking forward to the next class 'dota-outing.'
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10:14 PM