Monday, October 3
my exams officially end today! yeap. hoo-ray. on the other hand. sigh. i hope there's a chance for me to promote even though everything's last minute work and the TRUTH is i was never fully prepared for any paper i took. the worst part is i never get to finish a single paper i took on time. that's how it goes in jc. bad ain't it? anyway good luck to all my other friends elsewhere and including those in cjc yea! ending exams earlier doesn't mean anything too. ultimately what matters most is still the grades. come to think of it this time's promotional exam was pretty much a big screw up i guess. but since i have that little time now to relax before the results are out. i should! haha. here am i blogging. the past few days was filled with immense pressure and stress! total anxiety mans =p. i was panicking and all what if i can't finish studying on time and stuff like that. true enough i didn't finish studying at all. it's like all the odds are against you when you come unprepared. i'm such a sad case can. maybe that's the reason why i don't blog about how my papers go. i suck! yeap. i suck in everything! other people can say how well their papers have gone. i would be telling myself. 'no comments.' since when i ever passed anything in a jc? i would love to. but i always don't. did i not work hard enough? am i slow in learning? or i'm just plain stupid? i think i'm all three. doesn't God want us to have an easy way out for things? hmm. in reality nothing comes easily. be it results or even for a relationship to work well. the world i'm living in. the world i'm looking forward to is filled with just so much uncertainities and desparities. sometimes i even don't know if i have taken the correct and appropiate step forward in life. from what i am today. probably not yea. i've never achieved anything. oh well. a soul dying in the unfamiliar world if i should call it. after i said so much i just wish to PROMOTE! and get a brand new life!
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