Wednesday, November 2
now it's holiday for most peeps. for me i'm not quite in the holiday mood. i still have stuffs to worry about on where i would go if my appeal which is sometime next week is not successful. chances are it would be unlikely. so i just have to prepare myself for the worst that happens. you can be sailing smoothly and doing alright in life and all of a sudden after knowing that your education has been disrupted by something which is just really unpredictable like results. well at least that's what i think. there's no gurantee that you'l do well even if you study hard for exams. not that i did. but still i feel that no matter how beautiful life can be there's still the dark and unpredictable side to it. we can never be sure what the future holds for us. i regretted procrastinating and procrastinating my studies and doing every single thing except prioritising my studies at the top. my studying attitude still didn't improve. how bad. argh. if i were to carry on like that i don't think i can achieve anything in life man. i used to keep saying i need a change badly. but i always never put my words into action. it's as good as not saying i want to change my outlook towards studying. someday it must happen or not i'l be a failure all my life =p. this morning we had to be in school for the dry run for our project work presentation. i must say it went pretty bad for me becos i was never prepared for anything. not my exams let alone oral presentation. i kind of went on an impromptu for some parts of my presentation though for certain parts i needed to refer to stuffs. overall i think i talked way TOO long. omg. even ms lee said so. i still haven't finished some parts of my presentation but since time was running out we had to move on to the next speaker. :( i don't like the feeling when i still have things unsaid. okay. next round i'l be less long-winded. after presentation ms lee came and questioned me again. for the don't know how many time. she has been asking 'so how?' aiyo. talked to her for quite abit before i left with the guys and gals for subway. anyway i didn't have any money with me. so i just sat there and watched my classmates eat. poor me =p. brought two bucks to return leslie and all i had left was 60 cents. yes. i'm poor! darcy and aloy offered me a cookie. i didn't want to take it initially. will pai seh mah. they were like forcing me saying 'just take it la chris!' thanks aloy and darcy. ALOT. i appreciate my classmates. one year has passed and i'm glad that i've found my close friends in class. yeap. waited for corny to arrive. had his food then we left for leslie's house to play basketball and soccer. basketball was the most crappy game i have ever played. probably becos i suck at it. have alot to learn from aloy and leslie. i scored three 3 pointers. how was that aloy? haha. i guess it's was tyco of me too. i have no talent in basketball or any sports. maybe except cycling? i love cycling hell alot. and i think i have close to 8 years experience. experience sounds like such a big word. okay. i shall substitute it with i don't know what =p. after playing for an hour or so brandon and me had to leave first. sorry aloy and corny. ps the both of you. hope you don't mind. after bran got up the taxi leslie poo crossed the road and chatted with me while i was waiting for my bus. so nice of him =D. talking to him is just nothing else but fun. he's such an interesting guy to talk to. haha. the trip to leslie's place was so a guy's gathering. guys of t38 all the way! bloody daryl didn't ask him to come along he refused. on the whole my day went pretty well. -jumps for joy- i sound like someone who's out of his mind. haha. to leslie: ALL THE BEST to you next year! remember what i told you? train hard and go for it. follow your heart. yeap. that's all i can say yea. i'm sure things will turn out well. no worries yea. if you happen to see this and you need help you can always look me up okay.
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