Friday, December 30
it doesn't matter how long the love lasts. you will be contented once you know you were in love before...
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9:24 PM
Tuesday, December 27
i don't feel alright and well this days anymore. seriously. my life is no longer life anymore. ooh why am i saying such a thing?? -slaps forehead- my chest is always hurting like crazy (fuck) like how it does now. i don't know whether it is due to over-training which i don't think is the likely reason or for whatever damn reason things happen. today was so omg. i found out something quite unpleasant. it's got to do with one of my friends actually. this friend of mine. so the situation goes something like that. "i lied to you about alot of things because i was trying to match-make you with my friend and her name is whatever. and she is sec 3 this year. we used to be super good friends and she sort of like you so i lied to you that i'm her but now we are not friends anymore so i think i should tell you the truth. i'm really only going to be sec 3 next year. and in the past it was all her. not me. only starting this year it was me talking to you. you 'liked' the wrong girl. the girl last year was her. it wasn't me at all. i'm really sorry. i always wanted to tell but i didn't know how to. sorry.'' my mood changed quite abit while i was out with my family after i got to know through sms. however i so didn't want to pull a long face and all because i was out with my family and didn't want to ruin the happy mood =). think of it. it is quite sucky when such things happen to you. i don't know if i can put things in the nicest way but i'm sure life deals you with HELL lot of problems. not just this though. in fact i don't know what to tell her now as well. it is like oh my god. what can i say man? i'l shelve this for the time being. i have other stuffs to worry about. such as it will be my very first time working this saturday. i'm excited. yes! i have been a slacker for like how long and now it is really time for me to get OUT of my comfort zone and do something productive. sshh. i want to get a mp3 player for my brother's birthday since a few months ago i kind of traded away his ipod to get my current player for a cheaper price =p. hmm. i better blog this now or else i will forget it soon. by the way daddy was opening the letter box and to our surprise there was this sweet and pretty card inside. so we were all so curious to find out who sent it to brother. mummy was the most curious so she was the first to look at the card and opened it. i think it was his primary school classmate or something. the card was sweet that it was quite nicely done and there was even a small neoprint of her inside which both my parents found it cute. i haven't really looked at it. just a quick glance. that's all. heh. i'm not the least interested in my all my brother's gfs. bleah. i heard daddy reading it out what was in the card. 'this is my e-mail. please please please reply :)' yes. it's true she wrote so many 'pleases'. if i were him of course i would be touched i guess. well i don't know about him though. but i think i will try to get him to reply because it seems like he is not keen on replying since he wakes up before 7 every morning just to play dota. can you imagine? dota-ing before 7 in the morning?! i'm still sleeping like a piece of log =p. hmm. as for christmas it was church in the morning. then after church i took pictures with grandpa with this huge christmas tree located at the front of the church. helped brother took a shot as well. my eyecandy in church was there taking pictures too. hee hee xD. good thing i was there taking pictures and she went right beside me and started taking too. ok. beside. not RIGHT beside. haha. i went there first. nothing of the sort that i saw her there then i purposely went there to take. seriously. anyway i don't fancy her as an eyecandy anymore. aiya. i don't even know her name. how bad can that be. mummy was telling me 'heh. why see her there never go and wish people merry christmas?' hahaha. no comments! yeah. i should have. but sadly i didn't. ok. i supposed i have updated a little? =D. maybe dota later in the night.
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10:38 PM
Saturday, December 24
on candice's kind request i'l forget it. anyway i'm tired and i need a BREAK. chatted with ann till this late. omg. it's half past 2 in the morning. -yawns- and it's x'mas eve. rejoice!
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2:19 AM
Friday, December 23
i'm so going to report the person who sent me an sms reading 'Fuck off sucker'. i don't even know who the heck he is. so i replied saying 'Who the fuck is this?' i'm going to the police sometime this week or next week. and if this is the kind of game you want to play...
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1:13 AM
Thursday, December 22
WTF?! my com crashed THREE times this month.
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1:44 AM
Saturday, December 17
need for speed most wanted. here i come! no more dota for me. i love my need for speed most wanted. and i got it for free =p. that's all for today.
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1:24 AM
Sunday, December 11
this is a little entry before i go to bed. mummy woke me up at 5 to bathe, have breakfast and all bcos we'l be following daddy's car down to grandparents' place and he'l be rushing off to work. unfortunately i didn't get enough sleep the night before. was doing some windows blind visual stuffs on my com. at the same time ann was chatting with me till daddy woke up and asked me to catch some rest. that was around 1. 4 hours of sleep is hell NO =p. this week i went for two job interviews on thursday. the first one was at pearls centre. that place is seriously damn old and screwed up. i was there early even though i missed the bus-stop i was supposed to alight. before i even went in the unit i was supposed to have the preview i alr didn't have a good impression. actually the job's about some co-ordinating shyt which required me to PAY some sort of registration fee first. and it's not easy to work as a co-ordinator. i guess it's something like having your own student network and match tuition teachers of this company to your own contacts. if you close a deal only then you'l get money. what the hell! i hate doing this kind of job. no fixed salary so i can forget it. left the place and rang up jun to ask him about the job agency at suntec. was telling him about how sucky was the job. at the same time was joking with him saying all my friends from sji no need tuition one la. haha. anyway he gave me the wrong number at first. i called up and asked if this is job agency. the person was abit shocked and was like huh? haha. i got the correct number from him after quite sometime waiting for him to search for it. i sound so desperate for a job all of a sudden huh. YES i am! i don't want to end up the first three months of this year. JOB-less! maybe i'm too choosy and fussy about working conditions. i seriously should be more chin chai. was too tired to go anywhere after my second attempt to get a job at suntec. i hope i can have a job soon! well for today mummy and grandma went off early before 7 to help out in church. leaving brother, grandpa and me. as i didn't get enough sleep from yesterday so almost half of my morning was spent catching up on my sleep. woke up at like around noon. by then mummy and grandma bought lunch back. after lunching i forced mummy to go cycling with me. it's bad. cos this is the FIRST time i actually cycled with mummy. how sad. anyway we went to the park while mummy was resting i went to do chin-ups. omg. i could do only 12. i was SO depressed cos i've been training. not very hard but still reasonable to make me feel tired. maybe i was lazy to push myself? don't know la. made me so disappointed. the fun part was it was the very first time i cycled with mummy. cos she usually doesn't agree and won't. we went back 15 minutes later. brother just woke up from his nap. i asked him if he wanted to come with mummy and me for cycling. haha. he was like ok SURE! so it's another round of cycling for me. brother went to do chin-ups too! mummy was laughing at the way he did. quite ok what. haha. i was suan-ing and making fun of brother saying wah lao 7 only. so little leh. so i showed him i could do 10! haha. second time i was doing so arms abit no power alr. then he told me aiyah i can do more just that i never. always like that huh my brother. never admits defeat! i must say he's pretty good. i couldn't do 7 when i was in sec2. mummy, brother and me rushed home cos we didn't want to keep grandpa and grandma waiting. then all of us went out shopping and jalan jalan. towards the end of the day was tiring. cos grandpa told me he intended to paint his roof so he needed to wash off the stains and all the dirt before he could do the painting. being a REALLY angelic grandson that i always am i offered to help. haha. spent 2 hours? or more than that i'm not too sure but anyhow i was scrubbing and scrubbing till my arms went weak. till the sky started growing dark as well. i covered only the roofs around the garage and garden. there' still a long stretch behind the veranda. i'l probably be cleaning it soon too. i was standing on a ladder and scrubbing at the same time. wah lao. damn slippery with the water and all. my index finger got cut my the metal roof. luckily it wasn't that deep a cut. my whole body was dreanched with the dirty water. stinks! at like 7+ when it was too dark too clean had to get down from the ladder and quickly rushed to have my bath. felt MUCH cleaner and refreshed. by the time i finished bathing dinner was ready at 8. yummy delicious noodles grandma whipped up for me and grandpa of couse. it was really filling. in fact she always cooks too much extra. end up i having to finish up. cos can't waste food. no choice just had to swallow everything down. argh. i'm going to burst like a ballon =p. and followed by blogging now =D. what i'm in need most now is a job. yes a job will be good enough for me. waiting for calin's reply. i need her to tell me whether is there any vancancy available at the place she works. i might be a waiter. i don't mind as long as there's income $. enough for today. i know it's abrupt to end my entry here. well i need rest for church tomorrow. nights.
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12:29 AM
Wednesday, December 7
first i want to complain! haha. my brother has been hogging on the com for hours ever since the com came back. thankfully i still get to use when he goes to sleep. nobody in the family sleeps as late as i do. so everytime there's a chance for me to use the com still. life has been monotonous during those com-less days. now that it's back life is totally different. i don't think i want to spend too much time on games. once in a while i still have a match or two of DOTA with my cousin. he's too pro for me. so i always end up losing. not fun =p! i usually look at how he plays. i suppose he improved quite alot seeing the way he plays and the 'pro' advices he always gives me. haha. lately i have been crapping with brother ALOT till he can't seem to stand me any longer. he's not only my brother now but my crapping partner too! we simply crap about anything under the sun. hahaha. i miss soccer. now that the com's here nobody seems to want to go out of the house anymore. unlike those days when the com was still under repair brother and i would go for soccer almost everyday. see how a com can change your life =p. haha. i'm getting a job soon. jun recommended me a job agency when he rang me up not too long ago. but i alr got a few interviews at hand so i should just try for them. jun passed his supplementary exams. congrats bro =D. don't think he'l see it bcos i don't think he knows i keep a blog. anyway from what i know he doesn't fancy stuffs like blogs. so yeap. on the other hand it's sad bcos he can't join me in poly if he stays in cj. i got the new madonna and girls aloud album! oh ya. one of my cousins gave me the new jocie guo mei mei album. the one on tee-vee which goes maih-ha. whatever the spelling. haha. the songs all sound quite lame though but the tunes are kinda groovy? i don't know. and guo mei mei has such a squeaky voice! i've uploaded them into my mp3 player. shall listen when i get into bed later. brother says he doesn't want to study in sji anymore. i wasn't a busybody so i didn't question him. he's planning for a transfer. his interview with the new school is scheduled tomorrow. good luck to him =) if i can wake up and that's IF. i'll follow him. haha. wonder how is it like in the working world. i so have yet to experience it. bcos i haven't got a job in my entire life before. that's like how bad.
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1:23 AM
Saturday, December 3
had pancakes and honey for supper at grandparents' place. there's always nice food here for me :) on the other hand it's so wrong to have supper. -slaps head- bcos it's super unhealthy. people like leslie who's wondering why i haven't been online. sorry yea. no com for past 2-3 weeks. today did nothing much. woke up early like 5 in the morning had cornflakes for breakfast. bathed and all to get ready since daddy's going to fetch mummy, brother and me down to grandparents' place. that's basically how i spend my saturdays. with my dear grandparents. i slept here all the way from 8 till 11. i'm such a PIG! sometimes aunt comes down too. like today. she bought yu tiao for me. super oily can. now i try to reply tags bcos like more people tag nowadays. so yeap. sickening aloy used the msn voice function and chatted with me yesterday. saying he was too lazy to type. bleah. his voice sounded so lifeless and sleepy which in turned made me feel like sleeping too. but i ta-haned till 2 plus in the next morning. was installing and configurating stuffs on my com since i just got it back on friday. i've a sudden craze for eminem songs. maybe it kind of has the power to cheer me up when i can't seem to look on the bright side of things. like how the song ' Halie's Song' goes. i can't be bothered though it might be more meaningful if i post the lyrics of the entire song. 'sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulder, everyone's leaning on me... sometimes it feels like the world's almost over, but when she comes back to me...' it's similar when people turn to you for help and support when they need a shoulder to cry on. and the times when they seemingly feel that they can do better on their own you'l feel that your world's almost over bcos in a way it's like you're being 'used'. yeap. suchs things are no doubt saddening but we still have to face them. my mind's too tired to think about stuffs to blog =p. so i shall stop here. bye-ee!
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11:28 PM
i'm typing on daddy's laptop now. shall post it on my blog when my com comes back this friday. i'm just too lazy to set-up and configure the internet connection since it’s his office laptop. anyway it's just two days to friday. so yeap. i can wait. i’l post it on friday. i sent my com for repair like 2-3 weeks ago when it came back on last wednesday or thursday i can't remember exactly when the technicians changed a motherboard without an AGP slot. why can't they do their fucking job properly?! only after the person left then i kind of opened up the com bcos it's not that nice to open it up in front of him. realised that there wasn't a AGP slot when i wanted to plug in my graphics card. so i had to call him back to collect the com and change another new motherboard. till now i can't believe it they take so damn long just to get that part replaced. it's true i'm pissed with them. there's nothing much i can do about either. but the good thing is my com has extended warranty. so everything they replace would be free. yes. it's FREE :) however i don't like that fact they are so slow. on the other hand i lost contact with quite a few of my friends. saddening :( anyway i've lived with it. yesterday i was supposed to go down to sentosa for a class gathering. it was meant to be a stay-over too. sounds fun yea. decided to meet jun leong in the morning at 11 first. bcos i asked him along to sentosa as well. i was stucked in a bottle-neck traffic in bke. reached city link mall half an hour late. i saw him waiting there as patient as he can be. haha. sorry jun! really delighted to be able to meet up with him again. when i first saw him we both had the nostalgic kind of feeling after not seeing each other for so long. we were back to our usual selves after we started talking for awhile. oh he's such a good buddy i made in cj. too bad next year i won't be around in that sch. will be missing him =p. we walked around quite alot of places. he even recommeded and brought me to Max Brenner Chocolate Bar at Esplanade. he's just so nice. haha. before having chocolate i brought him to the roof terrace which he had no idea what it's like before since he has never been up there. we slacked for 15 mins or so enjoying the scenery there. i get tired out easily bcos i trained that morning before going off to meet him. and the bag itself i was carrying was enough to kill with all the clothes for stay-over and the beach. my shoulders were aching. evil jun was laughing at me saying my shoulders are weak. rubbish la. nowadays i train hard! in fact i work out every morning now before i start my day. i just feel that i seriously need to train up. yeap. that's about it. the chocolate bar was had a so so romantic ambience. the perfect place for couples. we ordered this suckao milk chocolate. i must say this is the first time i actually indulge myself in high-class quality chocolate. they had like small chocolate pieces on a plate and they provide you with a small metal bowl with a candle at the bottom so that you can like melt the chocolates and add how much milk into it yourself. so heavenly i tell you. i simply love it. as we were drinking the melted chocolate we were discussing when to leave for sentosa. and when he told me there was no stay-over anymore i was like wtf?! if there's no stay-over then i'l probably won't make a trip all the way to sentosa. jun said having no stay-over makes it less fun by how many million times. haha. i agreed too. 'great minds think alike yea!' think they went sentosa's outing was to celebrate whoever's attached to whoever. was telling him that too. both of us were alr tired and we chose to hang out a little longer and not go to sentosa. after that we went off to look at watches. jun considered buying a GUESS watch and he was asking my opinion. at the same time i told him about this pink GUESS watch my friend liked. it costs slightly less than 160 bucks after discount. he posted me two questions which got me thinking. 'what do you gain after you buy it for her?' the other question i couldn't recall. well don't wish to go into that now. by the time we finished looking at watches it was 3 plus. he was hungry so we went to food junction at raffles city. he had a bowl of wanton mee whereas i just drank water and watched him eat =p. don't wish to spend anymore money on food after having chocolate earlier in the day. decided to hang out for AWHILE more. before going off we had quite a personal convo. he was asking me stuffs and i gave as much advice and help i could. i know something secretive about him =p. for me i’m quite alright in telling anything’s that on my mind. i usually don't keep stuffs from my close pals and buddies. no harm telling them bcos i trust them alot. i shall blog again. till then. to people i lost contact this few weeks bcos of my spoilt com. i'l get in touch with you guys as soon as my com is back.
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